Hello everyone,
I'm kinda bad with responding but life has never been anything for me. The cards I've been dealt with were pretty bad, though an outsider might think I had a pretty good life. Honestly, my life up until 3 years ago was meh. Not horrible, not great. Since then a lot of things happened to me mentally that destroyed everything. Financially, health-wise and mentally. All came crashing down. Every year off the last 3-4 years I thought I couldn't get any lower, but the following years always got worse.
I have all things set and ready. I'm going to use Oxycodone with benzos and a bit of alcohol if needed. I planned on doing it at home but I'm not alone and due to possible choking sounds or gurgling I decided against it. Home was only the option for if it doesn't work and I vomit too much that I can jump out of the window. 5th floor (I know bad idea). Now I'm going to somewhere enclosed secluded where I won't be found for at least 1,5 days (minimum).
I got the following:
400mg oxycodone (5x80mg)
20mg of Xanax
Original plan is:
240mg oxycodone crushed up with a shot of vodka
20mg of Xanax
If I do vomit I'll take the remaining 160mg of oxycodone and lay on my back until I fall asleep (hopefully quickly).
I have never taken any opioids before and only taken the Xanax a few times. I won't have eaten or had anything to drink for at least 10 hours. I would have liked to get some antiemetics but the time has unfortunately come.
I hope everyone in here find peace and either a good and happy life or a quick and easy death. I kinda hope there nothingness afterwards but you can never be sure. Hopefully I will respond to some of y'all but I ain't really like that because I'm alone in this life always.
I'm kinda bad with responding but life has never been anything for me. The cards I've been dealt with were pretty bad, though an outsider might think I had a pretty good life. Honestly, my life up until 3 years ago was meh. Not horrible, not great. Since then a lot of things happened to me mentally that destroyed everything. Financially, health-wise and mentally. All came crashing down. Every year off the last 3-4 years I thought I couldn't get any lower, but the following years always got worse.
I have all things set and ready. I'm going to use Oxycodone with benzos and a bit of alcohol if needed. I planned on doing it at home but I'm not alone and due to possible choking sounds or gurgling I decided against it. Home was only the option for if it doesn't work and I vomit too much that I can jump out of the window. 5th floor (I know bad idea). Now I'm going to somewhere enclosed secluded where I won't be found for at least 1,5 days (minimum).
I got the following:
400mg oxycodone (5x80mg)
20mg of Xanax
Original plan is:
240mg oxycodone crushed up with a shot of vodka
20mg of Xanax
If I do vomit I'll take the remaining 160mg of oxycodone and lay on my back until I fall asleep (hopefully quickly).
I have never taken any opioids before and only taken the Xanax a few times. I won't have eaten or had anything to drink for at least 10 hours. I would have liked to get some antiemetics but the time has unfortunately come.
I hope everyone in here find peace and either a good and happy life or a quick and easy death. I kinda hope there nothingness afterwards but you can never be sure. Hopefully I will respond to some of y'all but I ain't really like that because I'm alone in this life always.
