soothesayrr
New Member
- Jun 11, 2026
- 2
i feel like an alien whenever i'm around other people. it is so clear that i am different from people this isn't coming from a place of ego either. i've been called a mystery by many people when in reality no one is invested in getting to know me as a person. no one understands the way i think, or why i do things a certain way, or why i act a certain way. i constantly get comments about my face or folks assuming i'm upset when i'm perfectly content. it sours my mood when people make these assumptions. i don't know what i'm doing wrong.
my boyfriend assumed i was in a bad mood and said he'll just keep his opinions to himself because i kept asking him a series of questions as to why he was frustrated over painters asking him to move our plant. i don't understand why he said that, i never implied he had to keep his opinions to himself i was just trying to understand where the frustration is coming from. the more i try to understand people, the more they misunderstand me. it's a cycle of me constantly losing my social value with others because i don't know how to read the room.
because of how frequently i'm misunderstood by others it's made me feel useless in this world. what am i really here for if humans are social creatures and i fail at properly associating myself with others. what's the point if i can't actually act a proper human being? what's the point in connecting with others if everything i say will be recontextualize into something totally different. i often think and sometimes regret trying to connect with anybody because my life would be easier if i was alone. i probably wouldn't leave the house but it'd make me happy knowing that i'm the only person who truly understands what i think and feel without the nuisance of other people assuming for me.
my boyfriend assumed i was in a bad mood and said he'll just keep his opinions to himself because i kept asking him a series of questions as to why he was frustrated over painters asking him to move our plant. i don't understand why he said that, i never implied he had to keep his opinions to himself i was just trying to understand where the frustration is coming from. the more i try to understand people, the more they misunderstand me. it's a cycle of me constantly losing my social value with others because i don't know how to read the room.
because of how frequently i'm misunderstood by others it's made me feel useless in this world. what am i really here for if humans are social creatures and i fail at properly associating myself with others. what's the point if i can't actually act a proper human being? what's the point in connecting with others if everything i say will be recontextualize into something totally different. i often think and sometimes regret trying to connect with anybody because my life would be easier if i was alone. i probably wouldn't leave the house but it'd make me happy knowing that i'm the only person who truly understands what i think and feel without the nuisance of other people assuming for me.
