Venting constant weight in my chest

[bpdmf]

ive been feeling sick with anxiety recently. after a half decent few weeks/months (by my low standard) i always return to this sickly feeling where all i can think about is everything wrong with my life and ultimately that the best way i can prevent this is by ending it. i feel cripplingly lonely and isolated constantly, and after years and years of trying to change this, it proves itself useless. i need relief from the pain and the constant cycle of feeling either numb or completely suicidal and miserable. if only i wasnt so scared to ctb :/

 

[lopsidedcrawdad1]

ive been feeling sick with anxiety recently. after a half decent few weeks/months (by my low standard) i always return to this sickly feeling where all i can think about is everything wrong with my life and ultimately that the best way i can prevent this is by ending it. i feel cripplingly lonely and isolated constantly, and after years and years of trying to change this, it proves itself useless. i need relief from the pain and the constant cycle of feeling either numb or completely suicidal and miserable. if only i wasnt so scared to ctb :/

I understand that feeling. It really sucks. Im really sorry youre going through that

 

[bpdmf]

I understand that feeling. It really sucks. Im really sorry youre going through that

thank you, i appreciate it. im sorry youre experiencing that too.

 

[Lulzacruel]

in my experience a lot of people with depression do report physical symptoms as well

i find it very interesting how mental health affects physical health and the other way around

 

[Jamesun]

Oh I feel the same, you are not alone it is horrible to feel.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really tiring and dreadful what you are going through, I hate how it isn't more straightforward to permanently escape from all the suffering, it's cruel how it's so difficult to die.