avalokitesvara
bodhisattva
- Nov 28, 2024
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It's interesting to see the methods that are commonly chosen/used/discussed. I wonder how different people are in the considerations they have when making what will be their final choice. I have a feeling mine are slightly unusual.
Personally I can't countenance the idea of anything instantaneous or almost instantaneous such as hanging, falling or firearm. Imagining going from fully alert and conscious to dead in a matter of seconds is too much for me. I want to prioritise a slow fade, moving through different states of consciousness, something more akin to falling asleep. I also want something beautiful, I want to be in nature. I am aware that deliberate hypothermia/exposure is potentially ineffective and unpleasant, but I'm not that hung up on avoiding any suffering. I can tolerate the suffering of death in order to reach death, when the memory of it will be erased. I also feel if I followed my current plan (destroying my life as fully as possible in practical terms (e.g. emptying bank account, disposing of possessions) disappearing, and travelling to a different country with harsher weather and where I could enter a wilderness and spend my last days alone in nature, with no recourse to return to "life", it could work.
What are your priorities?
Personally I can't countenance the idea of anything instantaneous or almost instantaneous such as hanging, falling or firearm. Imagining going from fully alert and conscious to dead in a matter of seconds is too much for me. I want to prioritise a slow fade, moving through different states of consciousness, something more akin to falling asleep. I also want something beautiful, I want to be in nature. I am aware that deliberate hypothermia/exposure is potentially ineffective and unpleasant, but I'm not that hung up on avoiding any suffering. I can tolerate the suffering of death in order to reach death, when the memory of it will be erased. I also feel if I followed my current plan (destroying my life as fully as possible in practical terms (e.g. emptying bank account, disposing of possessions) disappearing, and travelling to a different country with harsher weather and where I could enter a wilderness and spend my last days alone in nature, with no recourse to return to "life", it could work.
What are your priorities?
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