avalokitesvara

avalokitesvara

bodhisattva
Nov 28, 2024
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It's interesting to see the methods that are commonly chosen/used/discussed. I wonder how different people are in the considerations they have when making what will be their final choice. I have a feeling mine are slightly unusual.

Personally I can't countenance the idea of anything instantaneous or almost instantaneous such as hanging, falling or firearm. Imagining going from fully alert and conscious to dead in a matter of seconds is too much for me. I want to prioritise a slow fade, moving through different states of consciousness, something more akin to falling asleep. I also want something beautiful, I want to be in nature. I am aware that deliberate hypothermia/exposure is potentially ineffective and unpleasant, but I'm not that hung up on avoiding any suffering. I can tolerate the suffering of death in order to reach death, when the memory of it will be erased. I also feel if I followed my current plan (destroying my life as fully as possible in practical terms (e.g. emptying bank account, disposing of possessions) disappearing, and travelling to a different country with harsher weather and where I could enter a wilderness and spend my last days alone in nature, with no recourse to return to "life", it could work.

What are your priorities?
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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A lot of people just want to die in the most peaceful way possible that they can access. Unfortunately, not everybody can access peaceful methods so they instead rely on horrific methods which have a higher chance of succeeding and one which they can access
 
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Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

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You might want to consider drowning with weights, it would meet a lot of your criteria. Even though I have access to SN I'm honestly still considering it because the process seems easier to get my head around. I particularly like the idea of your last moments being euphoric.
 
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lacustra

lacustra

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Jul 3, 2024
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You might want to consider drowning with weights, it would meet a lot of your criteria. Even though I have access to SN I'm honestly still considering it because the process seems easier to get my head around. I particularly like the idea of your last moments being euphoric.

I seriously considered this at one time, but we have big ass crocodiles in all our rivers. And all the weird fish in the ocean terrifiy me.
 
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atre

atre

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Nov 18, 2024
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My first priority is the chance of success. The thought of failing and ending up in a worse situation is scary. Second priority would be the method's being relatively easy and/or peaceful compared to other methods. I think freezing to death in the wilderness might pose a risk of getting found by someone or being extremely unpleasant to the point of survival instinct coming into the play.
 
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isolatedl111

isolatedl111

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Nov 25, 2024
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You might want to consider drowning with weights, it would meet a lot of your criteria. Even though I have access to SN I'm honestly still considering it because the process seems easier to get my head around. I particularly like the idea of your last moments being euphoric.
I am thinking about jumping or cutting my throat
 
avalokitesvara

avalokitesvara

bodhisattva
Nov 28, 2024
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I also want to experience life without "life" for a bit before I die, as in, exit society and simply exist on this earth as an entity without a name, without a social position, without attachments, so I would do my best to thoroughly destroy all these things in the time leading up to executing my plan. I believe this would put me into a different state of mind in which SI would be less prevalent. I could spend my time meditating, fasting, and solely devoting myself to the approach of death. I think it would be beautiful.
 
Pryras

Pryras

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Feb 11, 2020
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Personally I can't countenance the idea of anything instantaneous or almost instantaneous such as hanging, falling or firearm. Imagining going from fully alert and conscious to dead in a matter of seconds is too much for me.
I feel the same way. I can't bring myself to use a firearm or hanging as a method.

Regardless of the pain level, I'd prefer to fade off or lose consciousness first like with SN or overdose of some kind. Dying from a terminal illness or something self inflicted like a car accident is also preferable to using a gun or hanging.