Help Conflicted. What should i do?

[ManchildLoser]

Hello,
I really really really want to ctb this summer, but i am feeling bad for my mom.
She always took care of me, was very kind, she is the sweetest mom ever.
I am hesitating to do it because her sister just died this year and my dad is a piece of sh*t. I dont want to leave her alone with my dad.
I dont want to hurt my mom, because i love her, but im so f*cking tired of this life
What should i do? Wait next year? Keep suffering for my mom? I just cant take it anymore..

 

[Nikitatos]

Tough situation. What's the problem in your life?

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

If you're conflicted you're not ready.. I hope you find peace and confidence in whatever you do

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Nobody can tell you what to do. Sounds like a bad situation which is going to require a lot of soul searching. I hope you can find the answers you need and that will bring you the peace you deserve.

 

[ManchildLoser]

Tough situation. What's the problem in your life?

Short story, Im a failure and i hate myself.