I lost my mom

[Sunset Limited]

Using Google translate.

17 days ago. 5 years in hospitals. Over a year of my life in total was spent in hospitals. The last 4 months were a nightmare. I don't even remember how many times I called 911. I know most of the emergency medical personnel in the city now. My mom didn't deserve this end. I've been here for ten years just for my mom. I haven't broken my promise. I'm happy about that. I never let go of her hand. She never felt alone or abandoned.

I can't even believe how much we loved each other in the last 3 years. More than we ever had in our entire lives. Actually, the illness made me realize how much I loved her. I did all the housework except cooking. She used to cook. Making her happy was wonderful. Now all I have left is grief. Yes, grief is the price of love. I feel good now that I didn't leave this world before her.

She was my mom, my friend, only loved one and my everything. Now I am completely alone and free for CTB. Maybe a few more months here. I don't accept her death. Just as I never accepted that reality.

 

[SASU-KE]

Cherish her memory. Your mother's lucky to have had a child like you. I wasn't the greatest kid growing up, but as I got older me and my mom became best friends.

She passed away a month ago and every now and then I still think of calling her or telling her something that happened and then a second later I realize she's gone and I'll never get to talk to her again. When that happens, a kind of overwhelming loneliness just sets in.

When I first got the news that she passed away, I thought of catching the bus immediately. I'm staying around still to take care of some stuff related to her passing. Thing is, I can't just die without mourning and grieving her.She deserves that at least.

 

[Sunset Limited]

Cherish her memory. Your mother's lucky to have had a child like you. I wasn't the greatest kid growing up, but as I got older me and my mom became best friends.

She passed away a month ago and every now and then I still think of calling her or telling her something that happened and then a second later I realize she's gone and I'll never get to talk to her again. When that happens, a kind of overwhelming loneliness just sets in.

When I first got the news that she passed away, I thought of catching the bus immediately. I'm staying around still to take care of some stuff related to her passing. Thing is, I can't just die without moaning and grieving her.She deserves that at least.

I'm so sorry for your loss. For 16 days I've been looking at pictures of my mother and watching her videos. I took so many photos and videos over the last three years because I knew she was going to die. It's impossible to describe how I feel. The whole world is empty for me now. My only consolation is that I don't have to carry this pain for much longer.

 

[SASU-KE]

I'm so sorry for your loss. For 16 days I've been looking at pictures of my mother and watching her videos. I took so many photos and videos over the last three years because I knew she was going to die. It's impossible to describe how I feel. The whole world is empty for me now. My only consolation is that I don't have to carry this pain for much longer.

When so many people are struggling with difficult parents, we both are very lucky to have had such good mothers.That's something to be thankful for, at least. And it's also good that we were able to make it till they passed. No parent should have to see their child pass away through suicide.

I'm sorry you're struggling so much

 

[behindtheveil]

I am really sorry to hear about your mom. I guess heaven needs angels more than we do here. I shared a similar bond with my mom who passed away few years ago. And no matter what anyone may say, you never get over it.
But yes, I do believe that she's an angel now and I am eager to join her and give a tight hug. To both of you Sunset Limited and SASU-KE - we all are indeed lucky to have experienced the wonderful thing called motherly love. And we will meet them one day - am sure of it.

 

[Sunset Limited]

I am really sorry to hear about your mom. I guess heaven needs angels more than we do here. I shared a similar bond with my mom who passed away few years ago. And no matter what anyone may say, you never get over it.
But yes, I do believe that she's an angel now and I am eager to join her and give a tight hug. To both of you Sunset Limited and SASU-KE - we all are indeed lucky to have experienced the wonderful thing called motherly love. And we will meet them one day - am sure of it.

I'm sorry for your loss. Before I lost my mother, I wished death was nothingness forever. Now, apart from nothingness, I can only accept the hope of seeing her again. Perhaps there is a place where mothers don't die. Where no one dies. For the first time in my life, I want to believe. Because this story is unfinished. Thank you for your kind wishes.

 

[behindtheveil]

I'm sorry for your loss. Before I lost my mother, I wished death was nothingness forever. Now, apart from nothingness, I can only accept the hope of seeing her again. Perhaps there is a place where mothers don't die. Where no one dies. For the first time in my life, I want to believe. Because this story is unfinished. Thank you for your kind wishes.

There sure is a place where we all be reunited, Death can't be nothingness, never. But yes i do believe it's going to take some work on us to reach to their level of existence. I mean they are angels now and we'll need to do lots of good deeds to raise our souls vibrations to reach them. All the best to you my fellow passenger on this train called life. Take care.

 

[SDB]

There sure is a place where we all be reunited, Death can't be nothingness, never. But yes i do believe it's going to take some work on us to reach to their level of existence. I mean they are angels now and we'll need to do lots of good deeds to raise our souls vibrations to reach them. All the best to you my fellow passenger on this train called life. Take care.

It really is nothingness

 

[BrokenByTheSystem]

That's very sad man, I'm sorry for you lost.

This is my biggest fear, once I lose my parents I have no idea what to do with my life. I think I'll be free to kill myself once for all.

Nobody cares about me beside my parents.

How are you doing in your daily routine without your parents?

 

[tonicer]

My heartfelt condolences. I am at a similar spot in my life. My mother is not very healthy and old, next year she turns 80 and i also have no one else. She is the greatest person i have ever known and after she is gone i am following her into whatever comes after. Each morning when i am awake first and making my breakfast in the kitchen i sometimes have a feeling like she died in her sleep but when i hear her opening her bedroom door i am relieved. I wish you the best and hope you find peace.

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I'm sorry for your loss. I can feel your pain, your loss, and your grief, as my mother passed just after 2am on Valentine's Day morning.

Like you, I spent the last few years with her as much as I could. Some days were better than others, but it got to the point she needed 24 hour care, something me and my brother couldn't do with our work schedules, and despite not wanting to, we had to put her in a nursing home.

Cherish all the memories of her, good and bad. I think when you think of a bad memory, a good one follows and shows that endless bound of the love she had for you. Somewhere I heard that "there's no love like a mother's love", and I truly believe that.

Many hugs for you my friend.

 

[Sunset Limited]

That's very sad man, I'm sorry for you lost.

This is my biggest fear, once I lose my parents I have no idea what to do with my life. I think I'll be free to kill myself once for all.

Nobody cares about me beside my parents.

How are you doing in your daily routine without your parents?

I don't have a daily routine anymore, I feel like I'm in outer space :) I wish you and your whole family a healthy life, my friend.

My heartfelt condolences. I am at a similar spot in my life. My mother is not very healthy and old, next year she turns 80 and i also have no one else. She is the greatest person i have ever known and after she is gone i am following her into whatever comes after. Each morning when i am awake first and making my breakfast in the kitchen i sometimes have a feeling like she died in her sleep but when i hear her opening her bedroom door i am relieved. I wish you the best and hope you find peace.

Ah, my friend, it's exactly the same. I used to prepare breakfast for her every morning. She loved omelets with cheese. She was unhappy because she was so tired of waking up in an old and seriously ill body. I tried to live every day with her as if it were my last. I wish I could have done that from the beginning. Thank you for your kind words. I hope you have a long and happy life with your mother.

I'm sorry for your loss. I can feel your pain, your loss, and your grief, as my mother passed just after 2am on Valentine's Day morning.

Like you, I spent the last few years with her as much as I could. Some days were better than others, but it got to the point she needed 24 hour care, something me and my brother couldn't do with our work schedules, and despite not wanting to, we had to put her in a nursing home.

Cherish all the memories of her, good and bad. I think when you think of a bad memory, a good one follows and shows that endless bound of the love she had for you. Somewhere I heard that "there's no love like a mother's love", and I truly believe that.

Many hugs for you my friend.

I'm sorry for your loss my friend. Thank you very much. "there's no love like a mother's love" I can really feel that

 

[bruised_reed]

I'm so sorry for your loss :(