Comfort in death

[felixwasabsurd]

I started realizing that I go straight to thoughts of death when I'm going through something, I don't even try to think of anything else I don't stop myself and it works. I can't wait to die anymore, the thought of walking into traffic splitting my head open on a pavement or starving myself to death has been taking over my mind.

Why can't I choose to die in peace, with no pain. I hope there is nothing after death, I don't want to feel anything anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

For me death certainly is the only comfort, I just hate how it's so difficult to die, if there's the option to just permanently and peacefully be free from this existence it would be such a relief as all that's ideal for me is nothingness, it sounds so appealing to fall into an dreamless and eternal sleep.