Catching the bus tonight

[PDAnnie2610]

Peace and safe travels.

 

[BPD_LE]

I really appreciate this thank you! I'm still brainstorming about some other things to order for my closest friend, I think that it would be also nice for her if she has a pillow with my ugliest angles but I don't know or that will be too much of me?
I mean, she told me that if I would ctb that she will get a tattoo dedicated to me (she thought about that because she knows that this moment is coming, again) ah is it gonna be toooo much???

I have my best friends name tattooed on me after she went. I would have cherished a funny pillow ❤

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Peace and safe travels.

Thank you!

I have my best friends name tattooed on me after she went. I would have cherished a funny pillow ❤

I'm so sorry for your loss, your best friend will appreciate her name on your body for sure.
Thank you! I will make sure that there's gonna be a pillow delivered to her within the next few days before I take SN.
Whatever you choose to do with your life: I wish you nothing but the best!


GUYS I was sending a delayed message to the suicide hotline (I'm sure that they'll receieve cases like this more often) and saw that I planned on sending the delayed mesages to loved ones for 23/12 on 13/12.
Tonight is meant to beeee

 

[less than]

I wish you a peaceful journey if you want go through with your plan tonight. I hope that all goes smooth for you. Please be careful with yourself. If you decide to proceed your life, we are here for you, too.

 

[hhsp]

Yes I am. I have the SN but need generic over the counter stuff to counteract the side effects like vomiting. I am hoping it is as peaceful as some have mentioned. It scares me the other stories. I don't want to survive it. I want my light snuffed out. I recently lost my job and will be leaving behind a great woman and two kids I love more than anything, but I have no choice.

why no choice?
hhhm to have a women whom you love
i mean if I would have a women and we cared for each other, I think it would keep me going, but without money it would also be very difficult for me.
I have about 3000 EUR left, when all is gone it will be much easier for me to ctb

 

[The nerd]

why no choice?
hhhm to have a women whom you love
i mean if I would have a women and we cared for each other, I think it would keep me going, but without money it would also be very difficult for me.
I have about 3000 EUR left, when all is gone it will be much easier for me to ctb

Lost the job over bad decisions which can and probably will hurt me after. Would rather die than face consequences

 

[NeCkDeEp]

I wish you a peaceful journey if you want go through with your plan tonight. I hope that all goes smooth for you. Please be careful with yourself. If you decide to proceed your life, we are here for you, too.

Thank you so much, I'm sure about this decision. Only 5 more hours and 19 minutes until I drink SN ah

 

[The nerd]

Thank you so much, I'm sure about this decision. Only 5 more hours and 19 minutes until I drink SN ah

I will be here. So much I want to know before my trip tomorrow.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Sending you goodvibes. I really hope things go well for you this time. ❤

 

[Carina]

I really hope everything goes well for you tonight, and you find the peace you seek.

[yes I know I'm new, but I have read so many things in the past almost 12 hours]

 

[hhsp]

Lost the job over bad decisions which can and probably will hurt me after. Would rather die than face consequences

Prison?
I respect any decision you make!

Thank you so much, I'm sure about this decision. Only 5 more hours and 19 minutes until I drink SN ah

I wish you peace.

 

[Enshadowed]

Hope everything goes well for you tonight and that you find the peace you deserve.

 

[x-Ace-x]

I'll be waiting for your answer and if u can, please keep us updated after u took SN

Hopefully this is gonna be my method, too. Been researching it all day. I'll be here with u tonight and wish u all the best

 

[realjunes]

Thank you so much, I'm sure about this decision. Only 5 more hours and 19 minutes until I drink SN ah

Thank you for letting us know. I will be here to support whatever you do. Hug to you, my friend.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

I will be here. So much I want to know before my trip tomorrow.

Just ask me any question and I'll make sure that these questions are answered before I'll pass out. Thank you for being here.

Sending you goodvibes. I really hope things go well for you this time. ❤

Thank you, I HOPE so! I will do the blood test 30 minutes before making and taking SN to be sure that I don't swallow anything else again hahaha.

I really hope everything goes well for you tonight, and you find the peace you seek.

[yes I know I'm new, but I have read so many things in the past almost 12 hours]

Thank you so much. No worries! I hope whatever you choose to do with your life that you'd be happy.

I wish you peace.

Thank you!!

Hope everything goes well for you tonight and that you find the peace you deserve.

Thank you so much. I hope that you'll find whatever you are looking for as well.

I'll be waiting for your answer and if u can, please keep us updated after u took SN

Hopefully this is gonna be my method, too. Been researching it all day. I'll be here with u tonight and wish u all the best

I will! Like I said to The Nerd: let me know if you got any questions and I will reply to your question before I pass out or just send a pm if that's easier.

Thank you so much! I wish you nothing but the best

Thank you for letting us know. I will be here to support whatever you do. Hug to you, my friend.

Thank you so much, hugs back. ONLY 2 HOURS AND 44 MINUTES NOW AAA.

I'm bored and tempted to do everything earlier but it feels on the other hand as rushing myself in to possibly being dead instead of waiting until 9 to take meds and 10 SN.

 

[x-Ace-x]

Sorry if I missed this part but what the other stuff did u take or planning to take? Like any antiemetics, antacids or it's as simple as pure SN? I just started looking into this method a few days ago so I'm pretty new to it but it seems way better than hanging cause very likely there won't br any brain damage and I don't need to be at home

I could take it somewhere very very far away from home so no one would find me haha.

Btw, where did u get the SN from? Like ebay or somewhere local? :)

 

[Saddad]

Good luck dude.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Sorry if I missed this part but what the other stuff did u take or planning to take? Like any antiemetics, antacids or it's as simple as pure SN? I just started looking into this method a few days ago so I'm pretty new to it but it seems way better than hanging cause very likely there won't br any brain damage and I don't need to be at home

I could take it somewhere very very far away from home so no one would find me haha.

Btw, where did u get the SN from? Like ebay or somewhere local? :)

My schedule will be the following:
9:00 - 1000mg of ibuprofen
9:15 - 3 tablets of anxiety relief
9:30 - 3 rennie tablets
9:37 - 3 sleeping pills which will avoid possibly seizures (it's not sure or you'd get seizures or nah but I got them so will just use them)
9:45 - 3 tablets of anxiety relief, 3 rennie tablets and 3 sleeping tablets
10:00: 3 full soup spoons of SN in 100mg water.

It's recommended to get anti vomit tablets but my anti vomit tablets are still on their way and cba to wait any longer because I'm supposed to seek help again tomorrow, so let's avoid that and risk vomiting. However I can finish a bottle of wine in less than one hour without vomiting so I just hope that my anti vomit skills are well trained.

I will send you a link in pm.

Good luck dude.

Thanks

 

[x-Ace-x]

You're so sweet to share it with us, thank u. Have u already taken the ibuprofen and and anxiety relief pills? Cause it's 9:20 PM where I live so not sure if our time matches :) Thank u for the link btw

 

[realjunes]

My schedule will be the following:
9:00 - 1000mg of ibuprofen
9:15 - 3 tablets of anxiety relief
9:30 - 3 rennie tablets
9:37 - 3 sleeping pills which will avoid possibly seizures (it's not sure or you'd get seizures or nah but I got them so will just use them)
9:45 - 3 tablets of anxiety relief, 3 rennie tablets and 3 sleeping tablets
10:00: 3 full soup spoons of SN in 100mg water.

It's recommended to get anti vomit tablets but my anti vomit tablets are still on their way and cba to wait any longer because I'm supposed to seek help again tomorrow, so let's avoid that and risk vomiting. However I can finish a bottle of wine in less than one hour without vomiting so I just hope that my anti vomit skills are well trained.

I will send you a link in pm.

Thanks

I know you know, but to remind, there is a school of thought that you should make 2-3 glasses of SN/water, so if there is any vomiting you will have more already to drink immediately should you need it. You wouldn't want to suddenly have to focus on making a second glass. Just putting out there, I know there are differing thoughts.
You did say you are on UK time, correct? I'm on Central time US, so I am trying to make my head think about UK time, which is in my future, so it is kind of strange. Thanks, I will be here with you regardless of what you decide.

 

[6ixxy]

I hope everything goes to plan this time for you, you'll be thought of and missed!

ps. How come you've opted for 100ml of water instead of the 50? It may be harder for you to do without vomiting considering you have no anti-emetics

I know you know, but to remind, there is a school of thought that you should make 2-3 glasses of SN/water, so if there is any vomiting you will have more already to drink immediately should you need it. You wouldn't want to suddenly have to focus on making a second glass. Just putting out there, I know there are differing thoughts.
You did say you are on UK time, correct? I'm on Central time US, so I am trying to make my head think about UK time, which is in my future, so it is kind of strange. Thanks, I will be here with you regardless of what you decide.

It's currently 19:26 here in the UK, so add 2 hours from now wherever your time zone is :)

 

[NeCkDeEp]

You're so sweet to share it with us, thank u. Have u already taken the ibuprofen and and anxiety relief pills? Cause it's 9:20 PM where I live so not sure if our time matches :) Thank u for the link btw

You're welcome, I live in the UK it's now 7.33 pm.

I know you know, but to remind, there is a school of thought that you should make 2-3 glasses of SN/water, so if there is any vomiting you will have more already to drink immediately should you need it. You wouldn't want to suddenly have to focus on making a second glass. Just putting out there, I know there are differing thoughts.
You did say you are on UK time, correct? I'm on Central time US, so I am trying to make my head think about UK time, which is in my future, so it is kind of strange. Thanks, I will be here with you regardless of what you decide.

Thank you!

I hope everything goes to plan this time for you, you'll be thought of and missed!

ps. How come you've opted for 100ml of water instead of the 50? It may be harder for you to do without vomiting considering you have no anti-emetics

It's currently 19:26 here in the UK, so add 2 hours from now wherever your time zone is :)

That's really kind of you thank you.

Uhh honestly I got no idea I could drink nitrate in one go (100 ml) without vomiting.
50 ml sounds even easier compared to 100 ml wow yes gonna change it to 50 thank you!

 

[realjunes]

I know you know, but to remind, there is a school of thought that you should make 2-3 glasses of SN/water, so if there is any vomiting you will have more already to drink immediately should you need it. You wouldn't want to suddenly have to focus on making a second glass. Just putting out there, I know there are differing thoughts.
You did say you are on UK time, correct? I'm on Central time US, so I am trying to make my head think about UK time, which is in my future, so it is kind of strange. Thanks, I will be here with you regardless of what you decide.

Thanks, your clock is 6 hours ahead of mine, I can never remember, writing it down. Best to you, mate.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

Thanks, your clock is 6 hours ahead of mine, I can never remember, writing it down. Best to you, mate.

Best wishes to you too.

Also guys funny story: one of my Tinder matches her hoodie lays here in my apartment and cba (she or I needs to travel 1 hour then) to send her a message 'pick your hoodie up or you'll never see your hoodie again.'
So I'm gonna die with her hoodie and she possibly never gets her hoodie back because there's no way that she will find out about my death lmao bye hoodie

 

[Dripping]

NeCkDeEp you are a kind and brave soul to share your trip with us.
Please can you do me a favour? on the other side look for Sara, an ex member and say her I truly love you, you'll never be forgotten, Ti amo tanto. And, where possible say Her that a special serving of pasta alle vongole is waiting for Her.
I give my respect to you and I'm sure you will find the peace you need.

 

[x-Ace-x]

You're welcome, I live in the UK it's now 7.33 pm.

Thank you!

That's really kind of you thank you.

Uhh honestly I got no idea I could drink nitrate in one go (100 ml) without vomiting.
50 ml sounds even easier compared to 100 ml wow yes gonna change it to 50 thank you!

Nitrate? Not Nitrite?

 

[WaitingAround2Die]

I'm sorry that you plan to leave us, but hope all goes peacefully for you.

 

[6ixxy]

Nitrate? Not Nitrite?

She mistakenly drank nitrate in her lasT attempt, nitrite this time.

 

[NeCkDeEp]

NeCkDeEp you are a kind and brave soul to share your trip with us.
Please can you do me a favour? on the other side look for Sara, an ex member and say her I truly love you, you'll never be forgotten, Ti amo tanto. And, where possible say Her that a special serving of pasta alle vongole is waiting for Her.
I give my respect to you and I'm sure you will find the peace you need.

Thank you so much, I will!

Nitrate? Not Nitrite?

My first attempt failed because I didn't check the SN (however it was advertised as nitrite) and it turned out to be nitrate so that's why I'm still here lol.
You need to drink nitrite!!!

I'm sorry that you plan to leave us, but hope all goes peacefully for you.

Thank you!

 

[Return2Dust]

You're so brave, NeCkDeEp. Thank you for sharing your journey. I wish you a peaceful and painless transition.