
torturedmind
What the hell am I doing here?
- Nov 5, 2023
- 19
I can't stop sleeping all day. All I do is sleep and go to work and then go back to sleep. I have fallen into a deep depression and I have stopped exercising and I now feel horrible about my body. I barely manage to take care of myself, like showering and brushing my teeth or washing my face. I sleep so much and it feels like that's just a few steps away from ctb, because I'm trying to avoid life. I don't feel like ctb is really an option for me, and when I think about doing it, it makes me sad. But I can't keep going on like this. At the same time I feel like it's too late for me to fix myself and make something of my life. The desire to stay in bed all day is so strong. When I do manage to do something, like go to the gym, it takes all my energy and I just can't wait to get back in bed. I don't know how people have full and productive days where they are constantly doing things. I feel so ruined.