Can’t live life at such a low capacity

[affirmatice]

Due to my physical issues which have in turn caused depression and anxiety.

My life is just not how I wanted to live it. I know if I was happy I would make so much more friends, do so much better at work, have so much goals and ambition.

But now… it's just a slog. Everything is 100x harder when your thinking about whether or not you will even be alive in a few years.

My soul hurts when I think about how much life and potential I've lost due to this. How much years I spent suffering and still wake up everyday and suffer.

When the things I used to enjoy and love doing. Now I have to motivate myself endlessly just to half ass it.

It's not the life I wanted to live. And I can't just keep touching it out. Either there's some massive change or I have to CTB. I don't see myself doing this for much longer

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, I imagine it must be tiring what you are going through, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing. But anyway I wish you the best.