Anyone else want to die because they're retarded

[AMutatedFlower]

I've tried ECT 18 times. I've tried to commit suicide a few times so I'm not working at full capacity. People use to not call me retarded but they do now. It's really sad how much I've lossed.

I want to die but I also don't want to suffer. More than likely I just continue to live. If anyone wants to dm SN sources it'd be appreciated. I need to die. It's the ethical right thing to do at this point. In forward thinking countries, id be offered suicide as an option. I'm also labeled incompetent and I live in the u.s. my abuser is my guardian so things are really bleak

 

[SparkleWater]

Been retarded since day fucking one and never got the right support. Id rather die than live the rest of my life crawling and barely surviving

 

[AMutatedFlower]

Been retarded since day fucking one and never got the right support. Id rather die than live the rest of my life crawling and barely surviving

Aren't you a student? Getting into college takes some good genetics. Id focus on that.

 

[cheaptrick]

Its not the main cause but it certainly contributed to my desire to die. If I could live a happy carefree retard I would, sadly the only option for me seems to be a miserable chronically in pain retard, which id rather not be.

 

[ona]

i think being retarded for me actually makes my life better, sorta like a "ignorance is bliss" type thing. im not like full brown retarded, but enough to where im slow in the head. i guess because its not as bad as maybe yours then i dont mind it as much since it makes me think less than others.

 

[insectontrial]

I'm autistic. I'm not intellectually disabled, but my autism has ruined my life for me and is the main reason I wish to CTB. It's not a condition that gets better over time. I thought I'd be better in adulthood, but I'm actually more visibly autistic now due to burnout. I'll never know what a normal life could've looked like, and the future just looks bleak.

 

[SparkleWater]

Aren't you a student? Getting into college takes some good genetics. Id focus on that.

its community so its not like it takes much to get in.
plus it should have taken me 2 years to graduate. maybe 4. Started at 18 i am turning 26 soon
and that has nothing to do with the way I get overwelmed so easily at things. Youd understand how retarded I am when you see me screaming and bashing my head in during a meltdown.

 

[AMutatedFlower]

its community so its not like it takes much to get in.
plus it should have taken me 2 years to graduate. maybe 4. Started at 18 i am turning 26 soon
and that has nothing to do with the way I get overwelmed so easily at things. Youd understand how retarded I am when you see me screaming and bashing my head in during a meltdown.

I went to community college too... I eventually dropped out. I wish you the best of luck