Can someone motivate me to ctb?

[Remanant]

My method is hanging. But everytime I stand on the chair with the noose around my neck, i chicken out and stop myself from taking the leap. how can i overcome this fear? can anyone give any tips on how to quickly push the chair and get this over it? i'm sorry if i'm being annoying by asking too many questions. thanks. also sorry for bad english

 

[an_alias]

SI is just like that. The best way to avoid SI is with a brief method that doesn't have many steps

 

[d3c4y]

I got over my fear of death by romanticizing it, and now I feel calm and accepting of dying, so possibly that will help you with your fears. however, my preferred method isn't hanging so I never looked into it much but hanging is a painful way to go



I'm not telling you to change your methods or anything of that nature, but I'm sorry for being no help but I hope you find the help and peace you've been looking for

ps. you're not annoying for asking questions, we all have questions or had questions at some point! and you're english is fine as well

 

[Remanant]

SI is just like that. The best way to avoid SI is with a brief method that doesn't have many steps

I understand. My only other option is to jump in front of a train, but i don't want to traumatize the driver for life and turn my body to mush. I hope that I can find some other method sooner or later. Thanks for taking the time to reply to my post.

I got over my fear of death by romanticizing it, and now I feel calm and accepting of dying, so possibly that will help you with your fears. however, my preferred method isn't hanging so I never looked into it much but hanging is a painful way to go

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I'm not telling you to change your methods or anything of that nature, but I'm sorry for being no help but I hope you find the help and peace you've been looking for

ps. you're not annoying for asking questions, we all have questions or had questions at some point! and you're english is fine as well

Pain isn't really much of a bother to me. My entire life has been nothing but a failure. Thanks for replying and I hope you find the peace you're searching for as well.

 

[b1264]

dont take this the wrong way but i dont think motivation is really the right wording

advice though? thats different

to be blunt,
being scared is 100% justified, but theres really nothing you can do to sugar coat it
if u fear suicide, then maybe it's not the right thing to do for yourself.
otherwise, all you can really do is commit to it.

it's 100% ur decision, i just feel the way this question is asked, you seem to lack ur own motivational reasoning, but really suicide should be
what you feel YOU want to do, not what another wants you to do.

sorry im not much help, also you arent annoying for asking questions dont worry

i wish you the best journey though, and if you do end up ctb i hope you find peace, <3
much love

 

[avaruus]

Do you have any sedatives? That would help for sure.
Even alcohol would probably help :)

 

[Remanant]

dont take this the wrong way but i dont think motivation is really the right wording

advice though? thats different

to be blunt,
being scared is 100% justified, but theres really nothing you can do to sugar coat it
if u fear suicide, then maybe it's not the right thing to do for yourself.
otherwise, all you can really do is commit to it.

it's 100% ur decision, i just feel the way this question is asked, you seem to lack ur own motivational reasoning, but really suicide should be
what you feel YOU want to do, not what another wants you to do.

sorry im not much help, also you arent annoying for asking questions dont worry

i wish you the best journey though, and if you do end up ctb i hope you find peace, <3
much love

Thank you for replying. English is not my first language so I'm hoping to improve. You are right to be honest. I am afraid. I'm not afraid of dying but i'm afraid that I might survive and become a vegetable. If I wasn't such a coward, i would be dead right now. I hope you find peace as well.

Do you have any sedatives? That would help for sure.
Even alcohol would probably help :)

I don't have access to sedatives but I can definitely get alcohol. Thanks for the advice. Much appreciated <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I would also fear suffering more from a failed attempt, it's so inhumane how people have no choice but to resort to barbaric methods like this and cannot just easily free themselves from this existence in peace. I wish that ceasing to exist on our own terms is more straightforward, it's so cruel how it has to be so difficult but anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

 

[Dying Knight]

My method is hanging. But everytime I stand on the chair with the noose around my neck, i chicken out and stop myself from taking the leap. how can i overcome this fear?

I see 3 possible reasons of fear:

1. You're not quite sure that dying is really what you want.
2. You're not sure that you can reliably achieve your goal with the chosen method and the consequences of failing may be catastrophic.
3. You're afraid of painful feelings.

Revealing the reasons of fear should help you to understand what's wrong with your motivation.

 

[Remanant]

I would also fear suffering more from a failed attempt, it's so inhumane how people have no choice but to resort to barbaric methods like this and cannot just easily free themselves from this existence in peace. I wish that ceasing to exist on our own terms is more straightforward, it's so cruel how it has to be so difficult but anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you search for.

Thanks for replying. I feel the exact same away too. Why should we continue to live when we never asked to be here in the first place? What is the point of any of this shit we call life? I've tried a lot to find answers but I've just encountered annoying pro-lifers who try to shove their beliefs down my throat. tbh no one really has any answers to these questions.... its kinda ironic in a way i guess. regardless of that, i hope that everyone who reads this finds peace sooner or later and i hope that you all are happy with whatever decision you take.

 

[Remanant]

I see 3 possible reasons of fear:

1. You're not quite sure that dying is really what you want.
2. You're not sure that you can reliably achieve your goal with the chosen method and the consequences of failing may be catastrophic.
3. You're afraid of painful feelings.

Revealing the reasons of fear should help you to understand what's wrong with your motivation.

Number 2 perfectly describes me. I'm certain that my life isn't going to improve and it is better to die but this fear has me in a chokehold. I hope that I can find a method that has no chances of failure. Thanks for replying.

 

[Dying Knight]

Drowning in a bathtub and suffocation with a bag over head are the most reliable and safe for abortion methods I can think of. If you abort the procedure, in either case the chances of taking damage are very small. If you don't abort the procedure and no one tries to rescue you, your chances to survive are nearly zero. They fit in the "all or nothing" concept very well.

 

[Remanant]

Drowning in a bathtub and suffocation with a bag over head are the most reliable and safe for abortion methods I can think of. If you abort the procedure, in either case the chances of taking damage are very small. If you don't abort the procedure and no one tries to rescue you, your chances to survive are nearly zero. They fit in the "all or nothing" concept very well.

Thanks a lot for mentioning these. I had thought of these methods last year but I wasn't sure about the fatality rate. Once again, thanks for replying

 

[Jan1193]

Drowning in a bathtub and suffocation with a bag over head are the most reliable and safe for abortion methods I can think of. If you abort the procedure, in either case the chances of taking damage are very small. If you don't abort the procedure and no one tries to rescue you, your chances to survive are nearly zero. They fit in the "all or nothing" concept very well.

I was thinking in the first method in a room hotel so badly, but I suposs the fear for failure resist to leave me. Thank you so much for posting this, you gave me more security

 

[Dying Knight]

Well, brains don't like hypoxia, and some destructive processes may happen even before passing out. When you reach the stage of hypoxia where you feel lightheadedness without having strong hypercapnic symptoms, you're under the risk of damaging your memory in some small degree. This damage most likely won't be noticeable, unless you repeat such a procedure many times. So this method may be not fully forgiving, but it appears to be way more forgiving than many other methods.

 

[Valky]

If you need motivation to ctb then it is simply not your time. Make of it what you want but we don't encourage suicide here, sorry!