Help Can I CTB on SN alone? What will happen?

[angelkissed]

Hey so, I'm getting evicted from my house next month. I was going to CTB in August but now my plan is falling through.

I was going to buy meto, propranolol, and possibly benzos to make the process less agonizing but I don't have that option anymore.
I deserve a peaceful and quick death. I want to truly feel like I'm just nauseated, throw up a bit, and then drift off into sleep.

If I don't take the meto and propranolol, what's going to happen? Will i experience my body going into asphyxiation while conscious? How long will i experience discomfort and how much more terrifying will it be? At this point do i just not buy the SN?

Is there absolutely any OTC drugs i can take that in extremely high dosages may mimic the effects of these antiemetics? I may still be able to get a hold on benzos but nothing else

Please help me out. If I don't figure this out soon I will be homeless and then I will be suffering a worse life and not have the resources to CTB

 

[adamantc]

You can see videos of Chinese people taking SN alone. It still might work, but you will vomit and leave a mess for the emergency responders/your family to clean up. You'll need to drink more, or have a second cup ready, as you'll vomit most of the SN out again.

 

[kaylag]

You can see videos of Chinese people taking SN alone. It still might work, but you will vomit and leave a mess for the emergency responders/your family to clean up. You'll need to drink more, or have a second cup ready, as you'll vomit most of the SN out again.

where do i find said videos? sorry if i sound stupid or naive

 

[angelkissed]

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You can see videos of Chinese people taking SN alone. It still might work, but you will vomit and leave a mess for the emergency responders/your family to clean up. You'll need to drink more, or have a second cup ready, as you'll vomit most of the SN out again.

Can you tell me where to find these videos? Also are they disturbing I don't want to scare myself out of this

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

where do i find said videos? sorry if i sound stupid or naive

On WPD. Watch people die.com.

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Can you tell me where to find these videos? Also are they disturbing I don't want to scare myself out of this

Of course they're disturbing. That being said, I've watched them & SN is still my backup method.

 

[angelkissed]

On WPD. Watch people die.com.

Of course they're disturbing. That being said, I've watched them & SN is still my backup method.

By disturbing what do you mean? Do they look terrified or in immense pain??

I need to know if it's peaceful and maybe just unpleasant, like when you drink too much and everything is dizzy and puking your guts but it's not like you haven't experienced it before.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

By disturbing what do you mean? Do they look terrified or in immense pain??

I need to know if it's peaceful and maybe just unpleasant, like when you drink too much and everything is dizzy and puking your guts but it's not like you haven't experienced it before.

No. Idk, watch them yourself & see what you think. The Joe Winko video is the most well known SN video, but there are 3 others that I found on that site.

 

[dirkw83]

Yes you can, the antiemetics betablockers benzos or painkillers are all optional and may not be necessary. They will help and make the process possibly more comfortable and take some likelihood of failure out (vomiting) but even then there is no guarantee that the whole process will play out a certain way. For example it's possible that you vomit and still ctb.

If I don't take the meto and propranolol, what's going to happen? Will i experience my body going into asphyxiation while conscious?

That's a possibility even with every precaution taken sad to say. It just depends how things will turn out for you, it's not guaranteed to be easy. TYPICALLY, but not necessarily, you will pass out before you experience severe asphyxiation, that's as good as it's gonna get.

 

[unkown00]

Its will cause vomiting since its a poison, your body reacts by making you feel sick. Also Its chemically induced suffocation so you'll feel very tired and lethargic. Perhaps like you've been exercising very hard. I don't recall if the guy was hyperventilating in the videos, maybe I'll give it another look. Also it dialates your blood vessels so you'll have low blood pressure and feel dizzy, have a headache, and your heart will start beating fast. That low blood pressure might cause you to start blacking out. But again that video of the Chinese guy was 12 minutes.

Overall, I think its chosen for its lethality over comfort. But I need to do more reading.

If suicide were easy, I guess more people would do it.

 

[angelkissed]

Yes you can, the antiemetics betablockers benzos or painkillers are all optional and may not be necessary. They will help and make the process possibly more comfortable and take some likelihood of failure out (vomiting) but even then there is no guarantee that the whole process will play out a certain way. For example it's possible that you vomit and still ctb.



That's a possibility even with every precaution taken sad to say. It just depends how things will turn out for you, it's not guaranteed to be easy. TYPICALLY, but not necessarily, you will pass out before you experience severe asphyxiation, that's as good as it's gonna get.

Is the meto the thing that makes you go unconscious faster? what would make me go unconscious faster?