Discussion Bouncing between feeling suicidal and slight hope

[AnxietyAttack44]

Same and its tireing indeed. Every minute you feel different. Now im ready to ctb, turn around and think but what if... Then you feel like ctb is ok again. Then you wake up and panic. Then sadness because you didnt do it already. All day and night long

 

[muffin222]

Yes, I can totally relate. I swing between slight hope to exuberance to utter despair regularly. I'll feel like I can't wait to just end it all, only to wake up the next day with hope restored.

I hate this rollercoaster

 

[Deleted member 19276]

Perhaps all the time, changing emotions between feeling a bit stable and then all going down due to memories and what not of traumas I had to live through.
One step forward, then two back and so on...