Venting Believing in hard determinism makes me start being very calloused emotionally towards suffering

[KillingPain267]

It actually kind of helps, but also makes me more calloused towards the suffering of other people. And in turn then it also makes me be more comfortable with my family's reaction to when I've managed to kill myself. I feel predestined to catch the bus! Maybe all my suffering happened so that I could kill myself and then in my suicide letter to my family I will say it's my will that they campaign for the right to euthanasia. Then they will feel obligated, hahahaha. Does that make me evil?

 

[azo]

Not exactly the same thing, but being a hard determinist makes me indifferent to my own suffering, on some level. I feel like I can't blame those who have caused me to suffer because they were fated to, and I can't fault fate either—there's just no agent behind this that I could direct any resentment towards, so I don't seem to feel any resentment at all.

I don't think requesting your family to campaign for euthanasia in your note makes you evil. If that's what you're asking.