Bulletwbttrflywings

Bulletwbttrflywings

My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
May 29, 2019
244
Thought it would be cool to start a thread to show why we chose the name and avatar for this site.

My name is because I love the smashing pumpkins and the 2 closest people in my life have CTB with bullets, so I found it quite fitting since I thought that was the best way out. Now I know otherwise.

My avatar... outside and walking my dog. Looked up and saw the light coming through the trees and took a pic. The beam took on a new meaning.

What about yours?
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
I like the Smashing Pumpkins too. Have any favorite songs?

I thought of mine out of laziness when I was zoned out one night and looked at this part of a painting I did which I tried to emulate with the artist and which used to be my old profile pic:
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And I've always been a fan of the artist Wassily Kandinsky and one of my favorite paintings of his is the Color Study. Squares with Concentric Circles:
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Oh and it reminds me of the Circle of Life hogwash.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,021
Mine is from Hamlet … Not existing is My answer. :smiling: I had to cut and paste this … not smart enough to remember all that. :wink:

Hamlet is basically contemplating suicide on and off throughout his soliloquies. In this soliloquy, he compares death to a little sleep, which he thinks wouldn't be so bad. ... But then Hamlet wonders if it's better to put up with the bad things you know about in life than to run off into death's "undiscovered country."


To be, or not to be, that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles
And by opposing end them. To die—to sleep,
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to: 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep, perchance to dream—ay, there's the rub:
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause—there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life.
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
Th'oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of dispriz'd love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of th'unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? Who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscovere'd country, from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will,
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all,
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pitch and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry
And lose the name of action.
I like that Smashing Pumpkins song as well. I heard it recently on the radio. I've heard it before but I kinda forgot about it.
 
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Bulletwbttrflywings

Bulletwbttrflywings

My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
May 29, 2019
244
I like the Smashing Pumpkins too. Have any favorite songs?

I thought of mine out of laziness when I was zoned out one night and looked at this part of a painting I did which I tried to emulate with the artist and which used to be my old profile pic:
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And I've always been a fan of the artist Wassily Kandinsky and one of my favorite paintings of his is the Color Study. Squares with Concentric Circles:
View attachment 12431
Oh and it reminds me of the Circle of Life hogwash.
I've always wondered about you Circles. Thanks for the explanation.

My favorite Smashing Pumpkins song:
 
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RM5998

RM5998

Sack of Meat
Sep 3, 2018
2,202
My username is composed of the initials of an alternate name I came up with when I was 12, and my birthdate.

The avatar is from Nier: Automata.
 
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LaBrava

LaBrava

Experienced
May 5, 2019
265
My username comes from the novel by late lamented genius of crime fiction Elmore Leonard - I've read and enjoyed plenty of works of serious literature, but no writers work ever gave me as much pure pleasure as Leonard's best books. We'll never see his like again. My avatar is the cover art of the album I was listening to constantly when I signed up, Tomorrows Harvest by Boards of Canada - its atmosphere really encapsulates the period we're in right now, the sense of a deep feeling of sadness at the climate and economic crises on the horizon.
 
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SinisterKid

SinisterKid

Visionary
Jun 1, 2019
2,113
My name is derived from a song by the Black Keys of the same name. The lyrics just describe me in many ways.

My avatar changes constantly. Sometimes its provocative, as in "You pray for me, I'll think for you" which sums up my feelings towards all religions. "I am only responsible for what I say, not what you understand" is a favourite, describing the semantics involved in online conversation and pointing out to the so called intellectuals that they are often not as smart as they think they are. "We either find a way, or make one" is just a way of trying to motivate myself to make it through another day.

My current one just fits in nicely with my name. I thought it looked quite sinister :wink:
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
Mine is the middle image of a Hindu triptych called Three Aspects of the Absolute. It's a soul in between, which is a perspective I'd like to maintain.

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I wanted to use the gif but it's too big and not very graceful anyway. Look up the original - it's amazing.
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
Avatar because I love waterfalls, they are so peaceful and relaxing to watch. Name from Pink Floyd song "Wearing the inside out". The first half of the song fits my life perfectly.

"I murmured a vow, of silence and now
I don't even hear, when I think aloud
Extinguished by light, I turn on the night
Wear it's darkness, with an Empty Smile."
 
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Faraway1990

Faraway1990

Student
Jun 2, 2019
195
My name is a random variation of a name I use in other places everywhere lol

My avatar is a lion I have a strong connection to the energy of the lion and I guess it's good at setting a tone when I'm dealing with antagonistic individuals. <3
 
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Norest4thewicked

Norest4thewicked

Losing it
Nov 4, 2018
270
User name comes from one of my favourite sayings. The avatar because most of my family have called me Eeyore due to my depressive episodes
 
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Faraway1990

Faraway1990

Student
Jun 2, 2019
195
My name is derived from a song by the Black Keys of the same name. The lyrics just describe me in many ways.

My avatar changes constantly. Sometimes its provocative, as in "You pray for me, I'll think for you" which sums up my feelings towards all religions. "I am only responsible for what I say, not what you understand" is a favourite, describing the semantics involved in online conversation and pointing out to the so called intellectuals that they are often not as smart as they think they are. "We either find a way, or make one" is just a way of trying to motivate myself to make it through another day.

My current one just fits in nicely with my name. I thought it looked quite sinister :wink:
Those are some of my favourite quoes as well. "I am only responsible for what I say, not what you understand." Is something I say often as people mistake me for things I'm not sometimes which used to bother me but I learned to not care.
 
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Menschenfeind

Menschenfeind

Jan 25, 2019
131
My username is inspired by the beautiful movie "Menschenfeind" (english title: "I stand alone"). Also the translation fits quite well: misanthrope. The movie is a great reminder about how lost you are in the so called society.

Also taken from a movie is my avatar: "Irreversibel": "A simultaneously beautiful and terrible examination of the destructive nature of cause and effect, and how time destroys everything."

If you don't know what to watch next, give it a try!
 
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AhG

AhG

La vie est tout sauf un rêve
Jan 24, 2019
313
I didn't come up with my username, mostly because it was already given to me by my wife. She spoke French and she only knew me by AJ and she didn't like the fact that everybody would call me that. So one day we were walking in gym class and I had asked her how the French alphabet went and she figured out that she could just call me AhG. Ever since then she always called me that.
My avatar describes how I feel on a day to day basis. How I feel trapped inside my own mind without the possibility of ever escaping it.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,954
My username because I was going through a phase of major self-loathing and self-deprecation when I signed up and was wallowing in self-pity while examining my life (oh wait, I'm still in that phase).

Avatar because my duck is a crazy person version of Donald, ie. me compared to everyone else. Like I'm the loony in the room, or so it feels.
 
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Sargasm

Sargasm

Compassion makes the world go 'round.
Jun 19, 2019
103
My username is a combination of sarcasm and orgasm. As in either orgasmic sarcasm when the smack talking is just that good, or sarcastic orgasm ("Oh baby, oh baby, aaaaand I'm done"). Imagine that last part in a very sarcastic and deadpan tone.

I chose my avatar because I have always loved cats, and I wanted a picture that is lighthearted. Something that might make someone smile when they see it.
 
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lostangel

lostangel

Enlightened
Mar 22, 2019
1,051
Thought it would be cool to start a thread to show why we chose the name and avatar for this site.

My name is because I love the smashing pumpkins and the 2 closest people in my life have CTB with bullets, so I found it quite fitting since I thought that was the best way out. Now I know otherwise.

My avatar... outside and walking my dog. Looked up and saw the light coming through the trees and took a pic. The beam took on a new meaning.

What about yours?
My pic is J.Cole I just really look up to him and my name comes from a song by a guy named reason I just really liked the name and the song
 
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Scribble Fan

Scribble Fan

I'm out!
May 30, 2019
815
My avatar is a panel from Sarah's Scribbles and I'm definitely a fan, as my username also shows. I just feel normal when reading that web comic. It's about non-functioning people mixed with humor so reading them always reduced my anxiety and makes me almost happy.
 
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Bulletwbttrflywings

Bulletwbttrflywings

My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
May 29, 2019
244
I feel like I got to know more about you all through your names and avatars... love the thoughts behind them. Some made me chuckle, some made me feel, some made me relate. Thanks for opening up, tribe. You're not alone... we're all not alone. We may be in the dark... but we have cookies :wink:
 
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inconsequential

inconsequential

Enlightened
Jun 1, 2019
1,011
My name is inconsequential. That's the reasoning for it.

Marla Singer is just a character that I can somewhat relate to. The bitterness, mostly.
 
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ZomGuy

ZomGuy

Member
Mar 1, 2019
86
My avatar is just a random sad anime character, because I love animes.

My username is an abbreviation for "Zombie Guy", because I feel like I died a long time ago, because of a certain event, which lead to my depression, never ending emptiness and suicidal thoughts. But that's another story. The name is also a wordplay because it kinda sounds like "some guy", that's also how I feel, like some guy of no importance. I basically tried to think of a name which describes me perfectly, no matter how silly it sounds.
 
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LongTimeComing

LongTimeComing

I'm a saint, got a date with suicide
May 23, 2019
58
My username is because I feel like I have been meant to die all my life and it's not a sudden change in my behavior; I've been suicidal for so long. My picture is redbull, because it gives you wings... and I want to get mine. (I don't believe in an afterlife though, I just thought it was funny)
 
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TimeToDie

Mage
Jun 13, 2019
521
My username is so clever that that nobody could possibly figure out what it means, could they?
 
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First loss

First loss

Specialist
Jan 28, 2019
393
First loss because it is a very sad piano piece. Also when I think about it I am the first child of my parents, their first dissapointment and probably their first child death.

Avatar is herr morbid from Forgotten tomb.
 
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Tabbyql

Tabbyql

Chronic people pleaser
Mar 13, 2019
282
Thought it would be cool to start a thread to show why we chose the name and avatar for this site.

My name is because I love the smashing pumpkins and the 2 closest people in my life have CTB with bullets, so I found it quite fitting since I thought that was the best way out. Now I know otherwise.

My avatar... outside and walking my dog. Looked up and saw the light coming through the trees and took a pic. The beam took on a new meaning.

What about yours?
Everyone else's seem to have an interesting/intelligent meaning. Mine is just a name I would like to be called and the 1st initial of my 2 beloved dogs. I love that band and especially love that song awesome.
 
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Bulletwbttrflywings

Bulletwbttrflywings

My soul is awakened... and I’m f*cked
May 29, 2019
244
Everyone else's seem to have an interesting/intelligent meaning. Mine is just a name I would like to be called and the 1st initial of my 2 beloved dogs. I love that band and especially love that song awesome.
Yours is as equally as personal and perfect.
 
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blanketyblk

blanketyblk

Mage
Jun 9, 2019
574
Blankety blank - UK game show we use to watch gowning up
Image - The only image of me that i actually like

wish mine where more insightful now :-)
 
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cornflowerblue

cornflowerblue

Mage
Feb 18, 2019
553
Thought it would be cool to start a thread to show why we chose the name and avatar for this site.

My name is because I love the smashing pumpkins and the 2 closest people in my life have CTB with bullets, so I found it quite fitting since I thought that was the best way out. Now I know otherwise.

My avatar... outside and walking my dog. Looked up and saw the light coming through the trees and took a pic. The beam took on a new meaning.

What about yours?
I used a random username generator for privacy then picked a matching image
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,801
My username as I wanttodie and
The avatar as I want to die by hanging
 
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