Autism

[nifii]

I thought i had just cptsd and i would be a better functional human being when i got rid of the trauma's so i did (with hypnosis). Turns out i'm autistic on top of this too. I really don't feel like dealing with fucking autism and learn to learn basic fucking human communication. I fucking hate it. I wish i could just be. Just exist in peace without all these shit therapies because there is so much wrong with me. I'm so fucking done with this shit. I worked so hard on my trauma's just to become aware that was only like 20% of my issues. I just don't wanna fucking learn how to be a human being and how to live in a world i'm not made for. I just wanna die fuck this shit man.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings of wishing to be gone really are understandable. I also have a form of autism (Aspergers syndrome), and I guess that it's part of the reason as to why I've always despised existing so much and never wanted to be here at all. It's just not worth existing in this world and it never could be. The reality is that some people are just not meant for existing and it really sounds tiring what you've been through. I hope that you find the freedom that you are looking for.