I'm going to try tonight. The stars aren't aligned exactly as I wanted, the method won't be exactly as I wanted, but I'm tired and I feel like I'm just waiting around, digging in circles hoping something gets better, going over the same shit in my head over and over hoping I see a path I didn't see before, involving people who I know aren't magically going to see new paths I haven't already mapped out. It's over, it was over a year ago, I need to stop stalling.
CaptainSunshine!
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nobodycaresaboutme
maybe my English kinda sucks
- Jun 30, 2025
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I'm really sorry life leads you to this point. Whatever you finally choose, I hope you find peace. Good luck
vanillamilkshakes
Aspiring Corpse
- Aug 26, 2024
- 546
I, too, am sorry that life led you to this point, but I hope that you find peace. Good luck, stranger
darksouls
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claracatchingthebus
Clara seems to be waiting for something. But what?
- Jun 22, 2025
- 516
I am sorry the world has been so difficult.
It's really awful how some psychotherapy and mental health really wants to push religion and higher power onto people. It's such a fundemtally different way of looking at things and as an athiest, I also feel like it has negatively impacted my ability to get services, having been subject to proselytizing when committed and higher powers when exposed to AA (although I am not someone who has ever regularly drank alcohol). You wrote in another post how medication and therapy were expensive and didn't help, and then in another post how a lack of financial wellness was impacting you. I really think it's true that the possible wellness benefits of mental health therapies are outweighed by their negative financial consequences. The tradeoff is something clinicians never bring up out of greed.
Im sorry you are not close with anyone. I wish there were an Asperger's/Autism peer support group where you could have met and connected with more people. Did you ever check for one in your area?
Many many people can't afford to leave their parent's place right now. You're not alone in that, and you could look for a higher paying job while living with them.
You were going to do this next summer right?
It's okay to change your mind on this. Sorry for things being like this, I am lonely too. Things can be a struggle sometimes.
You also do have the option to go back on medication and/or commit yourself if you want. Just because I had a bad experience doesn't nean you would, and others have recently posted about their good experiences.
Thinking of you today however this goes.
It's really awful how some psychotherapy and mental health really wants to push religion and higher power onto people. It's such a fundemtally different way of looking at things and as an athiest, I also feel like it has negatively impacted my ability to get services, having been subject to proselytizing when committed and higher powers when exposed to AA (although I am not someone who has ever regularly drank alcohol). You wrote in another post how medication and therapy were expensive and didn't help, and then in another post how a lack of financial wellness was impacting you. I really think it's true that the possible wellness benefits of mental health therapies are outweighed by their negative financial consequences. The tradeoff is something clinicians never bring up out of greed.
Im sorry you are not close with anyone. I wish there were an Asperger's/Autism peer support group where you could have met and connected with more people. Did you ever check for one in your area?
Many many people can't afford to leave their parent's place right now. You're not alone in that, and you could look for a higher paying job while living with them.
You were going to do this next summer right?
It's okay to change your mind on this. Sorry for things being like this, I am lonely too. Things can be a struggle sometimes.
You also do have the option to go back on medication and/or commit yourself if you want. Just because I had a bad experience doesn't nean you would, and others have recently posted about their good experiences.
Thinking of you today however this goes.
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Irisse
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woodlandcreature
tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
- Apr 3, 2024
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claracatchingthebus
Clara seems to be waiting for something. But what?
- Jun 22, 2025
- 516
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 45,674
I really understand feeling so tired, I hope you find the relief you search for.
claracatchingthebus
Clara seems to be waiting for something. But what?
- Jun 22, 2025
- 516
I wish I had posted this earlier, but here's an example of autism groups where you can meet other people with autism to make friends:
Having friends can really make a difference. I am not sure if that was intended to be your final post, it looks like you didn't log in after posting that.
Having friends can really make a difference. I am not sure if that was intended to be your final post, it looks like you didn't log in after posting that.
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spero_meliora
In hope for better things.
- Jan 13, 2025
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it's okay to change your mind if you aren't ready... but if you're already no longer with us, I hope your journey was a peaceful one. 
I failed. I am going to take a break from this site for a while.
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