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DiscussionAt what time of the day do you guys feel the most suicidal?
Thread starterTheMetalhead
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It used to be at night but in the past couple of months immediately when I wake up all day everyday since my date is coming very soon I'm constantly reading articles about my method and thinking about ways to improve it.
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peace_van, Praestat_Mori, CW36 and 2 others
At random times and to be honest, it drives me insane because the logical and emotional parts of my brain are always fighting against each other. Welcome to the world of being suicidal. I get an escape from it at times for brief periods of time, but the suicidal ideation eventually comes back and it is triggered randomly by almost anything. Uncontrolled basically.
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KillMeh, Praestat_Mori, OpalCheesecake and 3 others
Always morning, but usually after a walk in the woods and then the distraction of work the immediate feelings of dread are pushed back for a little while. If I'm ever left alone though they come back
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peace_van, Fernando_Pessoa and Praestat_Mori
Mornings because everyday I wake up feeling like complete shit because I can't get restorative sleep because of a neurological disease I have. Sleep makes me more tired. How the hell am I supposed to live with that? Sleep is detrimental for me.
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KillMeh, Praestat_Mori and deadinside777
suicidal since i wake up, but it usually worsens by the night. although i've been feeling horrible from the get-go today, so not sure how much worse it can get.
I'm always wishing for eternal sleep no matter the time of the day because after all there's nothing desirable about existing, only death can bring me the relief I search for, it just sounds so peaceful to sleep eternally.
All. Day. Long. I feel sad literally all day, from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep. It truly sucks but i try to manage.
But, my suicidal ideation is usually a lot stronger than normal when someone I knew successfully ctb, its happening quite regularly now, unfortunatelyā¦
In the past it used to be at night when there's nothing to distract me from my thoughts. But now it's starting to be in the morning when I first wake up. I dream a lot and I have usually dream about stuff that makes me happy. So when I wake up I have a couple seconds of bliss where I have no idea about my reality, if that makes sense. And then my mind fills up with all these memories and I feel sad again. That's the worst feeling for me.
I struggle especially in the morning. It's like i wake up and i dont want to participate.
It has lately been slightly better but it's so tempting to just give in to the desire to simply stay in bed for all eternity.
Also like washing myself up and getting ready for the day with my skin care, showering and brushing teeth is just a whole ordeal that i need to force myself to, i mainly rest after getting through all that because it exhausts and drains me so much that i gotta rest a little afterwards. It's always a problem even when i have a phase where i feel better.
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peace_van, MatrixPrisoner, Praestat_Mori and 1 other person
Right when I wake up. I'm immediately aware that I'm alive and I have to participate in existing. It tends to calm down as I find ways to distract myself throughout the day. It doesn't calm down much, though.
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peace_van, Praestat_Mori, deadinside777 and 1 other person
For me it's from morning to early evening, first half of the day, that's when depression is worst for me. I believe I have a thing called diurnal mood variation. Waking up to the weight of existence crushing me. In the evening I typically feel slightly better
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