Ratherbeskinny

Ratherbeskinny

"Insert profound quote here."
Oct 28, 2019
108
Honestly, everything was already wrong the day I got born. That never really changed.
 
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End Piece

Student
Oct 4, 2019
107
14. I acted out in all types of ways for attention, I guess: running away, skipping school, being promiscuous, drinking, but what really did me in was weed. At first it was fun and cool, then I had psychotic episodes from it where I thought I was turning hearing the people around me say bad things about me. That triggered my social anxiety, which then triggered my depression.
Really though, the stage was set at 12 when I entered middle school. I stopped caring about school, something I excelled at, in favour of social climbing. And it didn't even work! Should've stayed a nerd. Beauty fades, dumb is forever.
 
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Sweet emotion

Sweet emotion

Enlightened
Sep 14, 2019
1,325
20
 
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JohnUK

JohnUK

Student
Feb 15, 2019
147
21, all was good until I left college and went all down hill from there
 
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Eternal Pessimist

Eternal Pessimist

Student
Oct 16, 2019
177
I have never been particularly happy and in a sense things have gone wrong starting with my birth, but when I was younger I still had faith that things would somehow work out. I thought that happiness and contentment was just around the corner and that eventually I would feel fulfilled. After high school ended I lost this faith and started thinking about suicide at 19. Now I just have no interest in trying anymore and just want it to end.
 
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BandAddict

BandAddict

Specialist
Apr 3, 2019
338
Things were very wrong since the start, I suppose. I recall terrible things when I was 2-3 years old. However, I feel like I finally broke down at age 16. I'm nearly 20 now.
 
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CaptainT

CaptainT

Experienced
Nov 1, 2019
241
First breakdown (moderate) was at uni when I was 18. On SSRIs from 18-22.

Second breakdown (major) was this year, age 40. Classic "midlife crisis" but sent me over the edge.
 
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FTL.Wanderer

FTL.Wanderer

Enlightened
May 31, 2018
1,782
Birth. Born as too many "wrong" things.
 
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EndItQuickly

EndItQuickly

Member
Oct 30, 2019
88
It'd be rather trite, but soon as I was conceived. Genetic lottery, family, location. Tempted to say cursed.
Sorry to hear that :/

Isn't it strange how many people believe being alive at all is like winning the lottery?
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
Sorry to hear that :/

Isn't it strange how many people believe being alive at all is like winning the lottery?

Dunno if I should envy those fuckers or pity them for being oblivious morons. Probably neither.
 
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JellyDreams

Member
Nov 10, 2019
56
Bullying just isn't okay. I used to get bullied badly for being an artist and I was a very timid and scared teenager. Still am as an adult. I've become so introverted because of everything that's happened.

It's been 15 years since I've been diabetic as of the 26th of Oct and I was in the hospital for diabetic reasons for it.

I'm sorry you've felt so much pain and judgement.. I am here if you need to talk. x

Experienced the same regarding artistic and bullying.
ppl don't like others to be different and fit the the norm,so we're easy targets.

World should reward originality and creativity,not punish it.
 
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WearyWanderer

WearyWanderer

Student
Nov 3, 2019
130
I've always struggled mentally but my (major) physical problems started the last semester of college.

I was 22 almost 23 when the real hell began.

Being disbelieved, misdiagnosed, and accused of "anxiety" for what is a real physical problem has been worse than any prejudice I've faced due to my autism, depression or anxiety.

Because my neurologist claims I have conversion disorder (which was actually my body's reaction to muscle relaxants I was given) she now screwed me over with my other PTs and doctors and one of my PTs just stopped seeing me because I'm not seeing improvement after 4 visits.

Uh, yeah, my symptoms started over a year ago and I didn't get the right physical therapy or diagnosis until last month but since I haven't visibly improved in 4 visits that must mean it's conversion disorder. :meh: *rolls eyes*

My life was never easy but it's only become more and more unbearable and 22 is when life pushed me over the edge.
 
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MissNietzsche

MissNietzsche

Specialist
Aug 1, 2019
343
Idk..either birth/5 or 12 or 15 or 17, depending on how you define "wrong"
Experienced the same regarding artistic and bullying.
ppl don't like others to be different and fit the the norm,so we're easy targets.

World should reward originality and creativity,not punish it.

I used to get bullied because I was a female nerd I liked things like Pokémon instead of Barbies...maybe that's part of why I overcompensate in how girly I am now though..
 
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Done at Fifty

Student
Feb 19, 2019
116
Slow gradual decline from about the age of 12. I literally attract people looking for someone to pick on and bully. From Jr high to now. perhaps its my meek personality. I remember shaking with fear at the thought of going to school, terrified I'd be picked on or bullied. From there i'd escape into hopeful dreams and struggle to stay to positive. i'd tell myself 'this too shall pass' or 'things will get better' - it doesn't pass and things don't get better. I really believe some people are full on cursed.
 
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NoThanks2000

Member
Dec 3, 2019
16
14/15 At age 14 my depression become really bad and at age 15 I was officially diagnosed with major depression and autism.
 
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crea_the_hopeless

crea_the_hopeless

Ugly queen
Feb 26, 2019
95
My birth was a mistake and I've always been aware of that. Molested at 5/6 by a family member. Started self harming at 12. First hospitalization at 16. Failed my entire sophomore year of high school. Failed all throughout college. Medically withdrew last semester came back without clearance now I'm failing again. Not to mention the rapes, and disregard i've experienced over my college years. Really any of these moments could be the point where shit went wrong.
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
every age really. started in 2nd grade
 
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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,090
13 it started to wrong and 15 things got really bad. I was starting to develop mental health problems as well as getting bullied.
 
OneBigBlur

OneBigBlur

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
231
The day I was born. What astounds me is that I had so many opportunities to die before the age of 5 and somehow survived them all, it's like a cruel joke.
 
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TearyEyedQueen

TearyEyedQueen

In the wrong timeline
Nov 14, 2019
366
Either the age of 12 which is when my isolation started or the age of 14 when my depression got bad enough to be noticable to others and prevent me from doing normal daily activities.
 
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Moonicide

Moonicide

ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
Nov 19, 2019
802
The moment I was born... My mom wanted to abort me because she was preparing to leave my father, but she was too far along. My dad would beat her endlessly while she was expecting me and I was born premature due to it. She never left him.
 
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maka

maka

this is for you, mi cuervito 𓇢𓆸
Apr 23, 2019
161
Around age 7 when I was sexually assaulted, although that wasn't the complete end for me. The real shit started when I was around 9 or 10 years old. If my parents just let me stay and grow up in my own country instead of moving to this hellhole I honestly don't think I'd be on this site today. Life would've been so much better.
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
3 was when things started to go down hill, one of my first memories was me being beaten by the people who looked after me while my mum was away working. But I was sexually assaulted for the first time around 8 and that's when it all went to shit
 
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readybready

Member
Nov 25, 2019
22
For me it was at 17. And I remember it was Thursday
 
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Underdepth

Member
Nov 19, 2019
83
Thirteen years old, is when I started isolating and developed depression and social anxiety because I could not take the transition of adulthood, and then free realizing by leaving all my friends that caused me to never leave the house or do anything for myself.
 
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abheygpt1

New Member
Dec 2, 2019
1
In year 2016 , when i damaged my ear and was diagnosed with chronic tinnitus. I think i am the first here to be with such a weird problem. I dont have any depression and my mental health is absolutely fine. Please comment and tell your views.
 
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PeaceisallIwishfor

Member
Dec 4, 2019
78
10, that's when my eating disorder began.
 

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