Discussion Are you okay?

[PurplePerson]

Things are bad. Multiple people have suddenly moved into my home and I no longer feel comfortable at home. I don't really feel okay ever anymore and it's really starting to effect my ability to handle life. I haven't drank in 3 days so that's good i guess.

I see my psych soon and if they lower my benzos again I think I may aquire SN. I'm being tapered off and I cannot handle another dose drop right now. There is still some part of me that I know has a hope that things can get better but i'm having a very difficult time listening to it lately. . I know I prolly shouldn't make this decision in a mentally unstable state but whatever. I don't think i'm okay.

If you dont have enough hope then I'll have some for you. I truly hope your situation gets better.

 

[Nightingale93]

No. I'm not at all ok. I don't have any friends. I've never been in love, a relationship, ever been intimate with a woman.
Seems like every good thing that I ever come across gets ripped away from me.
Feels like only death is the one thing that will ever grant me peace.

 

[BillyBob]

Doing really bad lately. Things have been going bad since I left the hospital.
All I want is to die, but I can not even get up the motivation to do anything of the likes.
No want to live or be accepted in this world anymore. Just a loner outcast who wants to die.

 

[PurplePerson]

No. I'm not at all ok. I don't have any friends. I've never been in love, a relationship, ever been intimate with a woman.
Seems like every good thing that I ever come across gets ripped away from me.
Feels like only death is the one thing that will ever grant me peace.

There are other ways to feel peace, you just have to find them. I have hope that you do. I am really sorry for everything you are going through.

 

[foreverandever]

You are amazing for still trying. I hope everything goes amazing for you in the future. Do u think maybe I could see your art if u do draw?

I hope everything gets better for you!!!

Thanks, I appreciate it. I did a bit of drawing, but not really anything worth sharing. I don't mind sharing some older art, if you're interested.

I hope everything gets better for you too! You seem like a very kind person.

 

[PurplePerson]

Doing really bad lately. Things have been going bad since I left the hospital.
All I want is to die, but I can not even get up the motivation to do anything of the likes.
No want to live or be accepted in this world anymore. Just a loner outcast who wants to die.

Im really sorry to hear that. I know it doesn't mean much but I think your life is important. You'll never be an outcast, because somewhere out there, someone might feel the same feelings. We're all here on this site, arnt we?

Thanks, I appreciate it. I did a bit of drawing, but not really anything worth sharing. I don't mind sharing some older art, if you're interested.

I hope everything gets better for you too! You seem like a very kind person.

Ouu sure, id love to see any art you have!! Also thank youuu, it means a lot.

 

[charlavail]

Oh wow you actually said that to her? What did she say? If I may ask.

well it stemmed from her telling me that when i moved out i abandoned her and she's all alone etc etc so i said that and she said "omg don't say that you're just sad because of other stuff" and disregarded me so i said goodnight and hung up the phone. she's very dramatic, depressed, anxious. might be bipolar?

 

[foreverandever]

Ouu sure, id love to see any art you have!! Also thank youuu, it means a lot.

Cool, uh, do you mind if I send it in a dm? I'm not comfortable sharing my art to a bunch of people at once.

 

[PurplePerson]

Cool, uh, do you mind if I send it in a dm? I'm not comfortable sharing my art to a bunch of people at once.

Yeah, that's perfectly fine!! In understand that lullz

 

[insectontrial]

I haven't been asked that in quite some time. I'm not OK, but it is kind of you to ask.

I'm about to be kicked off my university course due to my physical and psychological health affecting my attendance too much. I'm actually grateful for the isolation it's brought - nobody from the course is checking up on me, I've basically just disappeared. When I finally do CTB it'll be a lot easier knowing I don't matter to so many people.

 

[PurplePerson]

I haven't been asked that in quite some time. I'm not OK, but it is kind of you to ask.

I'm about to be kicked off my university course due to my physical and psychological health affecting my attendance too much. I'm actually grateful for the isolation it's brought - nobody from the course is checking up on me, I've basically just disappeared. When I finally do CTB it'll be a lot easier knowing I don't matter to so many people.

You do matter tho. Im not capable of stopping anyone from ctb, but i hope things get better for you. You deserve happiness.