Discussion Anyone looking forward to their final day?

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Like the day you know the pain will finally end for good, all affairs are sorted, and you run down your list e.g. last meal, etc.

 

[kvsvenky100]

Yes. I am eager to CTB as soon as possible.

 

[Kurai]

Yes I'm ready

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I always wish that my final day was today. Sadly it isn't yet but soon it will be and, when it does, I will try my best to make sure I don't fail

 

[ThatGuyOverThere]

yes very much so, But I still have a couple years of planning and getting things in order before I ctb.

 

[Abyssal]

No, because when I leave it'll be when I'm in the most pain I have ever been in

 

[The Byronic Boy]

Yeah, getting there, less than a month left.

 

[bambibambam]

yes i'm ready, i ctb in less than two weeks from now and i've never been more excited

 

[Daryl72]

Like the day you know the pain will finally end for good, all affairs are sorted, and you run down your list e.g. last meal, etcI

Like the day you know the pain will finally end for good, all affairs are sorted, and you run down your list e.g. last meal, etc.

I am.very much so. At 50 years of age as suffering with severe OCD and depression that hasn't changed much with all the meds and therapy, I am so ready to end it all. Just wish I had the means to end it all peacefully and painlessly. From all the research I've done, it appears there is no such way. With no funds and basically on the verge of being on the streets, there is no hope and I just want to cease to exist.

 

[DEATH IS FREEDOM]

The day I die will be the most important day of my life.

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

I am.very much so. At 50 years of age as suffering with severe OCD and depression that hasn't changed much with all the meds and therapy, I am so ready to end it all. Just wish I had the means to end it all peacefully and painlessly. From all the research I've done, it appears there is no such way. With no funds and basically on the verge of being on the streets, there is no hope and I just want to cease to exist.

Yeah, extreme OCD is such a hopeless disorder too. I saw the others struggle in programs I attended late 2021 and I came across a 55 y/o that had undergone deep brain stimulation and it made no difference.

 

[iloverachel]

yes. i wish it was soon
life is just too painfully long to be waiting decades

 

[sensenmann]

fantasying about it everyday

 

[HereTomorrow]

Suprisingly, not really.

The final day before my first attempt was mundane. I kept thinking it'll be great when I sorted everything and did my final stuff, but I guess I was so numb from depression I couldn't enjoy my possible last day here, maybe because I just wanted to get it over with and see it as a chore. I'm not sure.

 

[everythingoes]

Kind of.

It's not that I want to die, there are things I'm still looking forward to, but I want the pain, the anxiety, and the thoughts to stop - and THAT I cannot wait for. I can't wait to not feel anything anymore.

 

[bookgirl]

I'm looking forward to my last day

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Suprisingly, not really.

The final day before my first attempt was mundane. I kept thinking it'll be great when I sorted everything and did my final stuff, but I guess I was so numb from depression I couldn't enjoy my possible last day here, maybe because I just wanted to get it over with and see it as a chore. I'm not sure.

This is exactly how I felt too, it was just a task that I needed to do.

 

[ab_]

Yeah, extreme OCD is such a hopeless disorder too. I saw the others struggle in programs I attended late 2021 and I came across a 55 y/o that had undergone deep brain stimulation and it made no difference.

Can I ask you a question about your request for euthanasia?

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Can I ask you a question about your request for euthanasia?

Sure, what's up?

 

[ThisGameIsOverrated]

I don't think I'll do anything special on my final day, I've already got my suicide notes ready so nothing different will happen on that day it'll just be like usual till it's time.

 

[ab_]

Sure, what's up?

How long have you been in treatment for severe OCD, what treatments did you try, and what was the process like for euthanasia for severe mental illness in the NL?

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Can I ask you a question about your request for euthanasia?

How long have you been in treatment for severe OCD, what treatments did you try, and what was the process like for euthanasia for severe mental illness in the NL?

I live in Belgium and I'm currently in too much pain to elaborate but 2.5 years so far and I'm planning to hang myself instead.

Edit: the euthanasia process is 2.5 years so far the therapy is since late 2019

 

[ab_]

I live in Belgium and I'm currently in too much pain to elaborate but 2.5 years so far and I'm planning to hang myself instead.

Edit: the euthanasia process is 2.5 years so far the therapy is since late 2019

Hmm
It's ultimately your decision but have you tried the max dosage of clomipramine and fluvoxamine taken together? I'd say buy SN and store it somewhere where it cannot be found by others and try that med combination first. If further treatment doesn't work the SN will always be there and it's a relief knowing that you have an exit available.

 

[MeowTheFlemishCat]

Hmm
It's ultimately your decision but have you tried the max dosage of clomipramine and fluvoxamine taken together? I'd say buy SN and store it somewhere where it cannot be found by others and try that med combination first. If further treatment doesn't work the SN will always be there and it's a relief knowing that you have an exit available.

I already bought a rope

 

[chestnut]

Looking forward sounds too positive tbh. I dread the moment I do it, because I will be the most miserable in life then. The relief and emptyness afterwards evokes longing inside me, yes.

Sometimes I think of the people who abandoned me, treated me coldly and made me miserable. I "look forward" to be finally seen and that my suffering will be recognized afterwards. That my choice to end it is honored, because I'm long gone then.

 

[Daryl72]

yes. i wish it was soon
life is just too painfully long to be waiting decades

Right there with you friend!