Discussion Anyone feel like they've lived too long?

[hopelessgirl]

Yes

 

[MovingOn]

I'm going to turn 27 less than 3 weeks. I never thought I'd live this long, but I've never attempted to CTB. I will soon, with SN.
I heavily considered CTB 6 years ago when I had access to a rifle, but aside from that I haven't really had any good opportunities anyway.

Oh well, doesn't matter. I've suffered a lot, but I also got to experience more and can be more confident in my decision.

 

[Lostblackchild]

any day alive is too much

 

[Countdown Kirk]

My coping strategies were good. I managed. But the darkness kept coming. Until it enveloped me. Now I'm in the pit. Everyday is a struggle. I'd rather burn bright and fast. Than wither and fade. This life is just harrowing....

 

[outrider567]

Wish I had died the day after she died....last January----Each day since then has been nothing but a pointless and joyless existence

 

[CTB Dream]

Wish nvr born this now what all awful, all time move make worse not listen people lie say better all no sense, body worse menral worsee now veg ,of course vary late

 

[donewithyourview]

Every day I feel like I've overstayed my welcome on this planet.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

Yeah, starting from the age of 7 I occasionally had passive thoughts about dying because of abuse and neglect at home. But I coped well, I still had lots going for me, still worked hard and was hopeful for a better future with better people, didn't work out. I should've gone a few years ago after another sexual assault, I impulsively attempted to ctb with paracetamol because I was clueless about methods at the time, but I just threw up and slept it off.

 

[GentlyFading]

For me it feels like I'm a human being long past its expiration date. My first suicide attempt was over a decade ago when I was around ten/eleven. Now I'm twenty-three. I regret every time I postponed or failed my exit. I'm so tired. I want rest.

 

[TheCyberian]

Yes, I often think I should have died at 16 when I overdosed on benzos + alcohol. My life has only gone downhill since then, and I think it's the universe's way of telling me I wrongly cheated fate.