Discussion Anyone else tired of life because of long-term ill health?

[Verena2]

I'm so fed up of endless illnesses, waking up in pain & having no energy. Anyone in same situation?

 

[unluckysadness]

Yes I am. I feel you. I have a rare disease and now disabled for 4 years. Waking up in the morning is just a nightmare. I have mental disorders too. I cannot control my body and my mind anymore. I don't really want to die, but I'm realistic, and things won't get better as I'm getting older. That's so unfair.

 

[r.m.216]

Fucking yes

I have chronic conditions and am only 9 months into them, I can't imagine doing another 55 years

 

[ggetout33]

Does gender dysphoria, severe depression, autism, and ADD count?

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I'm so fed up of endless illnesses, waking up in pain & having no energy. Anyone in same situation?

I generally feel I have little strength every day givin tasks but I don't suffer from any chronic pain I have some arthritis but that's nothing. Mainly my eyes and my father decline into blindness, mabye I'll get surgery at some point but that's only when Ill be able to bearly see and all my life my eye doctors have been telling me "8 years" "5 years" "6 years" "and your likely to be blind" so it is somthing I'm always worrying about because the little bit of
"goodness"
I get, I get from the sky

 

[akiyama346]

Yeah, I've had a chronic condition since 2019ish. It sucks, it's exhausting. My parents don't care at all, they just call me lazy. They won't cut me any slack. It's not even mental either, it's physical. It fucking sucks. I remember last time I hung out with my friends I had a flare up on my neck, and my friend asked me what happened. But thankfully he let it go and it didn't bother me about it.

 

[WobblyJock]

Yeah, suffered from chronic illnesses since 2009 or so. Go to bed beyond tired, wake up beyond tired. Alternate between insomnia and oversleeping.

Pain 24/7 plus a hundred other neurological symptoms.

Go to bed and the dread of waking up to another day is offset by the hope I snuff it in my sleep.

No energy to do anything or even enjoy the things I used to. Depression then sets in which probably makes me even more fatigued.

Doctors don't understand/care. Family care but don't understand.

I guess there's lots of us in the same boat unfortunately.

 

[unluckysadness]

Yeah, suffered from chronic illnesses since 2009 or so. Go to bed beyond tired, wake up beyond tired. Alternate between insomnia and oversleeping.

Pain 24/7 plus a hundred other neurological symptoms.

Go to bed and the dread of waking up to another day is offset by the hope I snuff it in my sleep.

No energy to do anything or even enjoy the things I used to. Depression then sets in which probably makes me even more fatigued.

Doctors don't understand/care. Family care but don't understand.

I guess there's lots of us in the same boat unfortunately.

Family and doctors cannot really understand. Healthy people cannot understand. We're stuck in this shitty condition
Hugs to everyone in pain

 

[WobblyJock]

Family and doctors cannot really understand. Healthy people cannot understand. We're stuck in this shitty condition
Hugs to everyone in pain

That is very true. Until you have lived it or walked in our shoes there is no way to understand what we go through on a daily basis.

Hugs to you too.

 

[Lawliet]

yes. i've had a horrific decline due to disability from head trauma. i was never super active but now im homebound

 

[kitkat9234]

My mental and physical conditions are progressing getting worse each day. It's unbearable. And no one cares. Especially doctors. Here take more meds that don't work. Making a killing off of me. Must be nice to be normal.

 

[littleearthquakes]

Yes. Been chronically ill my whole life and have taken a seriously horrific turn in my 30s and especially the last few years. I can't enjoy almost anything anymore and I'm so limited and always in pain. This truly isn't even a life anymore.

 

[silasthesad]

I have a day or two a month where I have no pain, and it's glorious. The world is crystal clear. The sun looks nice. I can move freely. The air smells fresh. Food doesn't taste like ash. I'm ecstatic for an hour or two before I realise I'm not going to experience this again for a really long time.

I hate my conditions so much. My head feels like a swollen pulsing watermelon right now. I'm so jealous of my friends who are just out there living there lives, while I'm stuck doing nothing.

 

[Docc]

yeah im done. bed bound 24/7 even looking ar my phone hurts. But the worst is the catastrophic tinnitus. Cant even hear anybody talk.

Inhave been to sick todo
it tho. But inhave to bite the bullet soon

 

[castlebravo]

I have a progressive neurological condition that started in my early 40s. I'm 54 now and it's become difficult to walk. I was an avid cyclist and love to travel. I've been falling recently and want to CTB before I'm completely disabled.

 

[Alexandra_]

Yes, I have exactly the same situation. I have no strength to endure all this anymore. My body is simply not designed for life. It only brings me suffering and nothing more

 

[Verena2]

Thank you to everyone for their responses. Chronic ill health is so isolating & friends & even family have a tendency to write you off.

I have a progressive neurological condition that started in my early 40s. I'm 54 now and it's become difficult to walk. I was an avid cyclist and love to travel. I've been falling recently and want to CTB before I'm completely disabled.

I have various conditions, having previously been active & healthy. I worry about getting too incapacitated to CTB.

 

[mirror_mercury]

my illness got better after i visited a psych ward

 

[Malfunction]

Yea it gets tiresome after awhile.

I'm good to go.

 

[Freedombus'25]

Yee being bed bound and duch us awful. Not having energy. Being fatigued easily. People not understanding what "can't" means and why.

Definitely tired of health. Too much to manage as well. Definitely top reason to CTB atm

 

[dewdrop]

It sucks waking up like this every day, hurting so bad, shivering, & trying not to throw up. i should be used to it by now, but it's still really hard trying to act normal when my heart always feels like it's beating out of my chest and my joints hurt so bad. Without my meds i've been fainting more, i wake up convulsing amd somehow still end up crying every time. It's so humiliating, and i feel a little silly even talking about it here. Reading through this thread makes me feel sad but also a little less alone

 

[yawdrareg]

been chronically ill since i was 14 (at least thats when i got diagnosed) and it's only gotten increasingly disabling. that was 4 years ago. feels like a lifetime ago.
haven't had a pain free day in months, maybe years. i cannot wait for death any longer

 

[tend a dead garden]

i have CTPSD and also chronic pain for 30 plus years. However, it's being on benefits in the UK which makes me most likely to CTB as their review process is so stressful and they don't hide the fact that you are a mere annoyance to them.
Every three years disability (PIP) is reviewed and they can also at any time review your entire benefits claim. I recently went through this a few weeks ago hence why i decided to join this site as it made me realise that the government just want me gone and despite medical evidence they make you feel like less than a person. You have to justify your existence to them and the process is very intense for a three week period ending in two 30 minute phone calls where they basically just tear your existence apart. I would like to work again but having a progressive chronic pain issue has made that impossible but they display not even basic empathy .
I'm sorry so many other people suffer from chronic conditions from reading the above and also the isolation aspect.