Anyone else on here 50+ ?

[dust-in-the-wind]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same?

 

[Hollowman]

I'll be 50 soon and yeah I feel the same. Planing to avoid that shit.

 

[pain6batch9]

I'm 41, but it did occur to me that at some point age might prevent me from taking action. There's a whole can of worms there with asking someone to help you. I wouldn't know how to have that conversation. Best to think it about it now though. To be honest, I think insanity is more of a danger to me than age. Or disability.

 

[Tesha]

50+. I'm not terrified of old age, but what I've lived so far has really broken me.

 

[genoke]

50+. I'm not terrified of old age, but what I've lived so far has really broken me.

I think your sig is my new mantra. That's awesome. It makes me feel calmer.

Why do you guys think most suicides are 55+?

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I'm 48, in life long recovery.

I'm not really scared of getting older, more about the future , environment, freedom, housing etc

 

[Raven_Nevermore]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same?

I'm f56. Not only because I've failed all my suicide attempts and I'm scared to fail again, right now another huge reason I'm sticking around is because both my parents' health is declining rapidly and they need (my) help and support. However, I still feel ineffectual at providing the necessary care, support, assistance that they both need and deserve. My older brother (close to 1000 miles away) has his head in his ass although I've tried to reach out to him for help and support. I DON'T want to put my parents "away".. Because, over the decades my father becomes MORE AND MORE distrustful of people. (we're under their roof), he is NOT going to allow outside help in. He definitely ISN'T voluntarily going to give up driving. Yesterday, he apparently hit someone else's bumber in the parking lot at Aldi's. I'M SO SCARED ! However, because of my vision and another neurological condition, I have never had a driver%'s license. And we DON'T live on or near public transportation routes. I FEEL SO HELPLESS!

 

[ton.ignoble-0y]

I'm rapidly approaching 50 and just lost my wife. I don't know how much longer I can hang on. Like you, all the other stuff that comes with age scares me too.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Absolutely. I'm a few years away from 60 and I don't want to find out what's heading my way, particularly when having to go through whatever it is all alone with no support. I already had to cancel a needed colonoscopy to follow up on an "abnormal" dna test that *might* indicate colon cancer, all because I had no one to accompany me to my appointment and the hospital refused to do the test since I had no one. If that's what's indicative coming down the pike, I just need to bow out as soon as possible. Definitely age-related health concerns are one of the top 5 reasons I need to depart this world, hopefully before something does happen.

 

[maniac116]

I'm in my mid 60s & for me it hasn't gotten any better. It's just more of a challenge & after 60 people start treating me differently

 

[AmIForReal]

I'm 51m.
I just don't feel it will get any better, so why bother.
It's is nice though to see plenty of 50+ people.

 

[notsadtogo]

I'm 57m.
I've done what I want to do and the thought of another 20+ years being miserable is not for me.
A few things to clear up and i'm out

 

[blueberryDesert]

50+. I'm not terrified of old age, but what I've lived so far has really broken me.

This. 60 plus here. I can't take it any more. I have no more dreams, they will never happen so there is no point in even having them. All of my efforts now are directed to disposing of my belongings. Most of the stuff will and have ended up in the trash dumpster because the donation centers around here are pretty full. That includes items from family members, photos, etc. I plan to ctb before the end of this year or sometime in 2025. It won't take much to take that last step towards the peace of not having to deal with my life anymore.

 

[birthdayboy]

51. I've felt like ctb since age 12, and nothing has ever improved

 

[babouflo201223]

52 years old, and the same ! I lost my wife (cancer) in 2006 and my new girlfriend let me alone in last december to start a new life without me. I'm alone. Sadly alone.

 

[sometimesoon]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same

I feel the same and don't want to find myself in some old-age home that is inabled by old age. Id instead go when I am still healthy.
And that is generally my plan - You don't have to be sick to want to end it. I am just tired of life and would be happy to end it soon

 

[fatladysings]

51f and happy to be ctb'ing before I reach old age

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I'll be 45 in 3 weeks. I just saw a clip this morning that said the housekeeper Alice from the Brady Bunch show was 43 when she was on the show. I wanted to off myself then and there.

 

[J&L383]

67, certainly not looking forward to old age. Many manage to get through it just fine, and come to a relatively peaceful end, but I'm not optimistic. I suppose that could change, things can always change. But getting older and dying is inevitable.

 

[BoneWeary57]

57 here. Too young to be old, too old to be young.

 

[Nofxfan]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same?

Forgive me for asking but have you always felt this way or is it because you feel that you are getting old?

 

[CatLvr]

57 here. Too young to be old, too old to be young.

Ha! I'm almost 70 and feel that way!

My best friend died in his sleep, quite unexpectedly, several years ago. I figure I won't be that lucky. There are certain diagnoses -- dementia of any sort, Parkinson's, that type of stuff -- that I will not wait on to take me.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I'll be 45 in 3 weeks. I just saw a clip this morning that said the housekeeper Alice from the Brady Bunch show was 43 when she was on the show. I wanted to off myself then and there.

44 here. I know exactly what you mean. I watch. so many old shows and when you find out their characters age or their real life age and it's younger than you are, it makes me feel so old!

 

[outrider567]

I'm 55f so I've lived a decent amount of life already and want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. Anyone feel the same?

I'm 70 and in perfect health and look like I'm 55, if you eat right, exercise, keep your weight down you'll be ok

 

[the old man]

64 uk m, after having 2 heart attacks and a personal issue a couple of years ago I stopped taking all my medication hoping I'd die naturally, unfortunately I'm still here plodding along so it looks like I'm going to have to take another route to exit this existence ...doing all my research as I type

 

[pain247]

I'm 67. In chronic pain and often just can't take it. Hurt back 2006. Meds not working like they use to work.

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

50+. I'm not terrified of old age, but what I've lived so far has really broken me.

I loath having to remember the same bad memories for years or decades to come.

 

[amnesia999]

I'm turning 61 soon. It's hard for me to believe I'm that old, and time seems to keep speeding up. My partner is 24 years older than I am, and has several health problems, but she's a tough cookie and can take care of herself for the most part. I have no idea what I'd do if she suddenly passed away. The thought scares the shit out of me.

 

[wanttodie]

I'm 62 m sand want to die. I'm terrified of what's to come from old age. so I need to end my life soon

 

[AliceTheGoon]

55M, my worst aging fears realized in the form of degenerative illness. Should have died three years ago but couldn't go through with it. Now just an emotional burden on friends and family.