Anyone else had a planned date?

[thereisnoone]

In late 2021 I had planned to kill myself by a partial hanging from the doorknob of my closet. I would attempt at a time I would usually go to bed so I would pass before anyone could find me. I had planned to be dead before I graduated from highschool. I didn't feel the need of acquiring a certificate for an accomplishment I had to experience hell for. But here I am still, since when SI kicks in it is a feeling not like any other. It is the body taking the flight stick and going in autopilot. And now the present day as I lay in my bed suffering from the memories of the past, and the reasons I had planned to kill myself. I realize If I were gone in the present day there would be no difference accept the memory of myself for my loved ones. There really isn't anything that has changed or gotten better. In fact I am finding more reasons to be steadfast on my way to getting out of here as soon as possible.

 

[rigsid]

I have a planned date of tomorrow. I'm hoping SI doesn't stop me.

 

[krsm98]

I was planning sometime this month, with a few weeks ago considering tmr to be the day, but i started to kind of reconsider after honestly feeling guilty of hurting a close friend. If it wasnt for that maybe i would be following through on doing it, but idk. A part of me wants out ngl, but also have a part that makes me wonder what if i keep going, even if im just suffering and things feel like they aint getting much better :/

 

[finasteride_end]

I planned to do it in 2031, just before my fortieth birthday. I don't think I ever belonged in this world. I am tired of trying to fit into it. At the same time, I don't really have any reason to leave at this particular moment. So setting a date makes sense. I will have time to distance myself from my friends and prepare them for a world without me in it.

 

[killawithme]

I never really planned a date although I am done with this life

 

[nowitscomingback]

In late 2021 I had planned to kill myself by a partial hanging from the doorknob of my closet. I would attempt at a time I would usually go to bed so I would pass before anyone could find me. I had planned to be dead before I graduated from highschool. I didn't feel the need of acquiring a certificate for an accomplishment I had to experience hell for. But here I am still, since when SI kicks in it is a feeling not like any other. It is the body taking the flight stick and going in autopilot. And now the present day as I lay in my bed suffering from the memories of the past, and the reasons I had planned to kill myself. I realize If I were gone in the present day there would be no difference accept the memory of myself for my loved ones. There really isn't anything that has changed or gotten better. In fact I am finding more reasons to be steadfast on my way to getting out of here as soon as possible.

I hope things get better, or you find your peace.
I plan to do it on the 19th, however I might delay it if I don't find a method to CTB that sits right with me, as I want to go on my own terms, my own way. Something about planning a specific day out gives you a feeling of contentment and peace, as things don't matter as much anymore.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I dont have an established date, but August 2026 might be the date I ctb.

 

[singingcrow]

I have an idea in my head but hope when the day comes I don't back out

 

[negi-maguro]

Was last november, not really planned because I keep chickening out from buying SN. I think I will try out some meds first atm, just to see if I can achieve what I want. Currently I'm planning to ctb in November again if I fail, though I prefer to do it sooner.

 

[thefarter]

yea im just going after Eid. Like i put it in my calendar but i doubt I'll actually do it that day.
idk i just want to do it when everyone around me least expects it lol :3

 

[Passenger4224]

My birthday!

Some people are worried about hurting their parents, I want to make it hurt more. They did what they could to try to give me an easy life, but I still resent them for creating me.

 

[vaas]

i didn't yet,still searching for a good method to CTB but if i find it it won't be long

 

[InTheAbyss]

I've had many planned dates in the past. Most came and went without anything happening. Worse others came and went with my method failing.

 

[LadyEve]

My birthday.