Anyone else feel completely at peace about death?

[xXiloveyouXx]

To put it simply, I received news on the phone yesterday. What I want is impossible, it can never be, no matter what words I say or what I actions I take, my squirming and kicking and fighting life is a bunch of sound and fury that signifies nothing. Fighting something impossible to overcome is as pointless as fighting against the inevitability of death. Why should I fight when I know for a certainty that I can never have what I want out of life?

This is why I feel so at peace right now, at peace with the entire world and my place in it, because I finally have a certainty to stand on. Nothing has been certain for me for so long. This terrible news is objective. It's now the ground and the boundaries of my world. So I'm not very afraid of anything all of a sudden. I'm not afraid of death. It's better to gently accept it since it's coming for all of us in the end anyway, and there's peace in inevitabilities.

I was not. I was. I am not. I don't care.

What's waiting for me when I die are the fulfillment of all of my failed dreams from when I was alive, and she'll be there too and we'll laugh and talk and embrace forever in a perfect state of non-existence. More than dead, not alive. I'm going to let myself sink because I'm so confident that it will all be okay in death, at the end of all things, at the end of time itself. Whatever it is, it has to be good. It has to be a beautiful dream.

 

[chloeburbank]

Honestly I'm jealous of those at peace. I'm fucking terrified

 

[bunnycats]

to be honest i dont really care about death either. just knowing that i will be gone for eternity feels weird

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, in fact for me ceasing to exist is the only peace, only in non-existence will I be at peace from this dreadful, terrible existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution, it'd solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in the true permanent peace of non-existence and to never suffer again is just all I've ever hoped for.

I'd never wish to be burdened with this torturous, cruel existence that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to me existing will always be dreadful and I find it so horrible and painful how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the agony of old age, to cease existing is all I hope for but all I truly want is to erase this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all.

 

[theDunce]

Searching for that peace. However, so far, I just feel the opposite.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Honestly I'm jealous of those at peace. I'm fucking terrified

Same. Life and death are impossible.

 

[fishperson]

Tmrw is probably going to be my big day. And while i was at peace now im scared.
All im doing is checking this website on repeat , and it feels so miserable even for me. Man, reality's weight rly is crushing. But it's ok , this will be more fuel.

 

[teethreceiver]

this is a really beautiful post that I resonate with greatly. its a very nice thing to be content with death.

 

[Zyntkalla]

I am mostly at peace with it. I am only having trouble letting go of some things.I am still deciding if I should just not care or do the things that I would want to get done before I go. I only have three things that I would like to finish frist but I definitely won't have time with the limited time before I have to move out of my place.

 

[itsgone2]

Not really at peace with it. It's just something that needs to be done. Unfortunately.

Doing it though. Not at peace with that at all

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

yes my Death is the best thing by a quadrillion times . my Death is the escape from hell. and then in Death I'll be safe from ever suffering unending constant unbearable pain. because Death is eternal Non-existence as before I was born when I couldn't and can't suffer pain that's a billion times worse than the worst u can imagine. but while alive i can suffer such pain : and everyone says i have to remain in this dangerous state of living under threat of extreme torture, that i can't suicide. and I ask why do I have to live under threat of extreme torture or even if it wasn't so dangerous ? I don't have to

Tmrw is probably going to be my big day. And while i was at peace now im scared.
All im doing is checking this website on repeat , and it feels so miserable even for me. Man, reality's weight rly is crashing. But it's ok , this will be more fuel.

what method?

 

[fishperson]

yes my Death is the best thing by a quadrillion times . my Death is the escape from hell. and then in Death I'll be safe from ever suffering unending constant unbearable pain. because Death is eternal Non-existence as before I was born when I couldn't and can't suffer pain that's a billion times worse than the worst u can imagine. but while alive i can suffer such pain : and everyone says i have to remain in this dangerous state of living under threat of extreme torture, that i can't suicide. and I ask why do I have to live under threat of extreme torture or even if it wasn't so dangerous ? I don't have to

what method?

Fsh, im gonna mess around partial but it probably wouldnt work. I just think its less cruel to die sitting than hanging. But , its going to be FSH

 

[uselessmanz]

Same. Life and death are impossible.

This is how I feel right now. My method is right there in front of me…

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

This is how I feel right now. My method is right there in front of me…

I have one too but it's a fantasy. Partial hanging in my closet. I've backed out of it so many times and I know I can't stick out the squeeze until unconsciousness. Yet having it there comforts me.

 

[CentreMid]

I once read a thread here a long time ago that asked "do you remember what things were like before you were born?". The idea was that I had to imagine a time before sentience.

That question helped me understand and feel at peace with both death and nonexistence, as I'd imagine the nothingness I "felt" before being born is what nonexistence is like, and nonexistence means there will be no chances to suffer anymore.

I'm not afraid death anymore, as the notion of nothingness seems much more peaceful to me