Am I alone in feeling attached to suffering?

[Ambivalent1]

I've been suffering from various things for years. It's been debilitating and awful, but it feels right. I've learned somehow to kind of enjoy my hell. It's wearing on me though.

 

[phrog21]

sometimes i do feel this way and then i remember things before suffering when i was really little. i didnt have anything fucked up happen to me as a kid so im really lucky. i do think i was unempathetic towards people going through hardship before experiencing it myself, so thats a plus

 

[Ambivalent1]

sometimes i do feel this way and then i remember things before suffering when i was really little. i didnt have anything fucked up happen to me as a kid so im really lucky. i do think i was unempathetic towards people going through hardship before experiencing it myself, so thats a plus

Yeah suffering taught me to understand others a bit better.

 

[nekrocis]

i feel this. when things feel too normal or stable i seek something to hurt me again or drag me down. the feeling is almost comforting until it becomes too much to bare at times and puts me in a dark place

 

[SilentSadness]

After having experienced so much toxic positivity, I have lost trust in positive statements. To me, suffering and the truth are so much more reliable, and it's comforting to think about something without the risk of it being a lie. I also discovered that every time I convinced myself it's better to be positive, even for a very short amount of time, the inevitable realisation of the truth would crash down upon me and make me suffer more intensely than before. I don't want positivity or suffering, I just want death. I hope your situation improves.

 

[Ambivalent1]

After having experienced so much toxic positivity, I have lost trust in positive statements. To me, suffering and the truth are so much more reliable, and it's comforting to think about something without the risk of it being a lie. I also discovered that every time I convinced myself it's better to be positive, even for a very short amount of time, the inevitable realisation of the truth would crash down upon me and make me suffer more intensely than before. I don't want positivity or suffering, I just want death. I hope your situation improves.

Life is suffering. Buddha was right. Too bad the eightfold path doesn't seem like much of a solution.

 

[AnnonyBox]

After having experienced so much toxic positivity, I have lost trust in positive statements. To me, suffering and the truth are so much more reliable, and it's comforting to think about something without the risk of it being a lie. I also discovered that every time I convinced myself it's better to be positive, even for a very short amount of time, the inevitable realisation of the truth would crash down upon me and make me suffer more intensely than before. I don't want positivity or suffering, I just want death. I hope your situation improves.

Same. This feels almost as if I had written it.

 

[endless_pain]

Having suffered from childhood abuse, I have discovered it's a trauma bond and it feels like the same for me. Like we are addicted to experience only sufference and when something good happens we look out for the danger being in this constant flight or fight mode :(

 

[RoundaboutResolved]

Human beings can eventually adapt to most anything. Doesn't mean its good for us, usually the opposite actually. But there ya go.