BecomingTired
Lov3rBoy<3
- Feb 23, 2024
- 141
I hate living so bad, I completely break down whenever I'm left with my own thoughts with nothing to do it all hurts so bad; in every single fucking way imaginable I have to live with an insufferable existence. I genuinely can't stand myself, I despise everything about who I am as a person and just want to die immediately. It's such fucking torture, i don't mean it in a literal sense as in my appearance or anything similar, I loathe my utter conception into this fucked up world it's so fucking miserable I hate it. It's nothing about the way that I was born, it's just me, I hate that it's me. I wish I wasn't ever alive, it should've been anyone except me; why did it have to be me, I can't deal with this shit anymore. Im a waste of life, I would have never been able to be happy no matter how good of a life I had it's so fucking ironic. I have no goals, no dreams, no purpose, nothing I don't think people genuinely get how insufferable it really is and act like its a blessing I SEE NO POINT IN EXISTING IT ISNT A FUCKIGN GOOD THING TO BE HAPPY ABOUT I CANT EVEN BREATHE RIGHT NOW I can't anymore it's all so fucking meaningless, I experienced so much for what I don't even understand whats keeping me going at this point I have 0 drive towards any and all things not even the most brainless forms of entertainment can bring out any reason for me to continue with it and I can't feel any motivation for even the smallest of goals. My whole life is a fucking joke, i can tell noone takes me seriously, nobody NOBODY CARES I AM A SICK JOKE OF A PERSON I can't tell anymore who I am as an individual, I genuinely can't i hate that I just feel so so so empty i can't even feel slightly content
