al0neinmy$kin

[nolosis]

It's been almost a full year of being alone, keeping my thoughts to myself and not telling anyone anything, or at least not the actual truths of my mind, just me and my skin. My skin doesn't feel like it's mine though, it feels disgusting almost because of how unfamiliar it feels to me. I want to leave it I don't want to be inside of it but im so fucked up I can't even bring myself to end my life. I'm already dead like on some real shit I don't even see the point of CTB bc I don't feel like im alive, I'm already dead.

 

[catnowmeowmeow]

I'm feeling like this, ever since my break up, after an initial period of denial and pain I now feel very numb and like I'm watching my life being lived. I don't really feel like I'm living my life and nothing I do brings me joy. It's kind of like someone turned off the experience switch in my brain and I'm just going through the motions. The only thing that makes me excited is the thought that I can end this one day. I can't imagine another 30 years of feeling like I'm watching a silent movie which is my life.

 

[nolosis]

I'm feeling like this, ever since my break up, after an initial period of denial and pain I now feel very numb and like I'm watching my life being lived. I don't really feel like I'm living my life and nothing I do brings me joy. It's kind of like someone turned off the experience switch in my brain and I'm just going through the motions. The only thing that makes me excited is the thought that I can end this one day. I can't imagine another 30 years of feeling like I'm watching a silent movie which is my life.

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