advice would be cool

[floppyfrogged]

im thinking of doing partial hanging but im so scared of becoming a vegetable and just suffering even more, so idk what to do.
i know i have to ctb soon because i cannot be registered with my deadname in my classes next year. i cant do that. my parents dont believe im mentally unstable anymore or trans so all my hopes of getting better are gone.
is there any other methods that are not painful and quick? i want a calm way out. i need this to work, and i cant survive and have other long lasting problems. im just scared lol thankzz