30 and tired of living.

[Hurt]

I'm turning 30 soon and I can't believe I'm still alive. I think that I've wasted the last years. My days can be sum up to feeling suicidal and doing repetitives things. This isn't getting better as many people told me.

 

[IfyouareamanWinston]

According to the 37% rule, by 30 (something like 37% of life expectancy) one would have a good idea what the rest of life would be like, what opportunities one would get. It's time to stop dreaming and set a realistic target.

I have figured out what the rest of my life will look like that's why I know it's getting close to time to go.

 

[nopride86]

I'm turning 30 in a few months and I just…..I never wanted to live this long. It feels inherently wrong to exist.

 

[SunshineAndSuicide]

I'm also tired. It just sounds so nice to fall asleep and never wake. Life is so tedious, pointless and repetitive, your feelings are understandable. I could never endure existence until I die from old age, the thought of suffering for many more decades is horrifying.

Are you planning to ctb anytime soon?

 

[FuneralCry]

Are you planning to ctb anytime soon?

I don't have any plans to leave soon unfortunately. Dying is not easy for me. I will probably need to be really desperate to finally find a way to go through with it. But no matter what I will never reach old age.

 

[justtoojaded]

I'm turning 30 in a few months and I just…..I never wanted to live this long. It feels inherently wrong to exist.

Same. I thought I would have died by now by something external. Now I'm like "Okay. Guess I'm taking my own life."

 

[obafgkm]

I have a co-worker who's worked with the bank for 43 years. Being able to the same thing for that long baffles me.

I think in the past doing the same job for life was the norm. Today jobs are very more often contract based, renewed every few years.