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Peace2peace

Specialist
Dec 26, 2024
361
What would be your final wish before ctb share your thoughts
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
That I succeed in my attempt and never wake up again
 
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UnnervedCompany

UnnervedCompany

Student
Jun 21, 2024
148
That my everyone forgets about me especially one friend. I literally just mentioned the idea to her and she started crying and panicking. I wish I never existed I was nothing but bad to them and if I do CTB I will be just more harm.
 
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Kusogaki

Kusogaki

šŸŽ§
Mar 22, 2023
127
I will sound like a fucking corn ball but love.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
755
That no one follows me by also catching the bus
 
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Jadeith

Wizard
Jan 14, 2025
642
That they won't miss me or be sad because of my departure.
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
For people to understand why
 
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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
1,390
Let it be an instant death.
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
649
What would be your final wish before ctb share your thoughts
I better get my fucking universe created or this shit wasn't worth it at all!! 😫😤
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
I hope I will be able to actually feel the peace before I die. But more importantly I hope my brother is able to heal and build a life for himself without me there.
 
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danny10

danny10

Banned
Jan 8, 2025
263
I'd wish my daughter to forgive me.
 
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3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
137
That nobody REMEMBERED ME, I will be like I didn't exist at all, everything will be forgotten about me. I don't want to be remembered, I just want to go peacefully without knowing anyone.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,009
I just want to never suffer ever again in this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, to permanently cease existing is all I hope for, it'd solve everything for me in this existence I see as just causing nothing but suffering, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway. I personally see it as something so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, only non-existence can personally bring me peace, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten about for me.
 
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human909

human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
590
Mine would be for people to understand why i did this and to succeed in the attempt so i don't ever have to suffer in this world again.
 
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NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
623
I'd wish my sons and wife, mom sister brother and nephews, will get over it, have a successful life, understand and forgive me.
 
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thereisnoone

thereisnoone

It’s getting cold
Mar 26, 2024
352
That it goes smoothly and swift and unknowingly
 
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onthefence

onthefence

Actually… sobbing on the floor
Dec 31, 2024
227
To just have all evidence of my existence disappear so not even a single memory of me remains.
 
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kosmischerunfall

kosmischerunfall

Student
Jan 7, 2024
196
that my ctb will be painful and i hope that something better is waiting :D had enough of unfulfilling wishes that never happend in real life
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,333
I wish my suicide will be successful that I achieve my Death asap which is non-existence forever asap

Non-existence means solving all my problems instantly and forever never any pain , never any suffering problems nor bad memories:

I know that one micro-second after my brain dies the monsters won't be able to to Bring me back to life. And I know 1 micro second after my brain dies dies i will never exist again

non-existence forever is the only guarantee of never suffering extremely so it's the only perfection.
 
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ringo99

Mage
Apr 18, 2023
536
That my teenage nephews and niece get over my death without psychological trauma. Somehow I became their favorite uncle and they confide things to me that I never thought they would. It hurts me inside but I've been trying to cut myself off from them as much as possible so they can move on more easily. Relieved that I never made the mistake of having children of my own. There's no way I would've been able to go through with ctb and I'd just be passing on my mental hangups to the next generation
 
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WanderingGypsy

WanderingGypsy

Member
Jan 14, 2025
31
I hope that those who know me will understand and be able to move on with their lives. I hope I find peace. I want my last breath to be a sigh of relief.
 
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tirednwired

in the end everybody loses
Oct 28, 2024
43
For my little sister to live a long and happy life
 
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kosmischerunfall

kosmischerunfall

Student
Jan 7, 2024
196
that my ctb will be painful and i hope that something better is waiting :D had enough of unfulfilling wishes that never happend in real life
painful lol *not that painful
 
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A Dream of a Dream

A Dream of a Dream

Warlock
May 6, 2024
781
That my loved ones have lives with far more good and joy in them than pain and suffering. That they love themselves, each other and support one another.
 
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JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
1,115
That the method works perfectly so that I can leave this world as soon as possible. And I wish my family will always be well, free from anything bad..
 
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numb3r

New Member
Jan 24, 2025
4
I would want to finally feel peace, no more worrying about the future or the present or the past, no more wrestling with severe mental illnesses and neurodevelopmental issues for the rest of my life. I would also want my partner to move on quickly.
 
NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
568
For my attempt to succeed as quickly and painlessly as possible. Also that me doing it wouldn't cause a lot of emotional harm to others.
 
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OTanerd

Member
Jan 15, 2025
57
I don't even know what I want anymore. I just hope that this world can be a much better place without me and that it has a chance to be a happy place for all the people in it.
 
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Peace2peace

Specialist
Dec 26, 2024
361
For me just for my parents to be happy and have all their heart desires met
 

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