All I regret is suffering in this torturous, cruel and deeply undesirable existence in the first place, existence itself is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings all for the sake of it and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I just find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed, to exist means to suffer and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence.
I see it as something so terrible and dreadful to be burdened with this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, to me existence is just something so evil that only ever brings pain and suffering, the suffering this existence causes is endless and I'd only be relieved to never suffer again.
To permanently cease existing would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, ceasing to exist would save me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I just never would had chosen that was completely unnecessary, I find it horrific how a human can exist for so long in this terrible, torturous existence, to be conscious in this existence of futile suffering truly is an abomination, all I see as beautiful is non-existence, all I see as positive is never having to exist again.