Bibotik470
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- Jun 17, 2022
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So this serves as a partial update to my previously mentioned lease violation post (which has supposedly been reduced to a warning while under a six month watch at the scrutiny of my vindictive neighbors and property management, yippie…) but I've just about had enough with not just this fucking apartment complex, but the state as a whole. Minnesota.
-Topic Shift Incoming-
(buckle in kids)
Now I'm from the east coast. Describing things being vastly different doesn't do much justice.
I moved to Minneapolis in September of 2023 based off medical preference as my previous state wasn't able to provide me with the supports I needed.
The past three years here have painted Hell a far more suitable paradise in comparison. This isn't to shun the folks born and raised here, but I'm fed up blaming myself wondering what it is I'm doing wrong.
I don't know what else to think.
Why are people here so fake? Why are people constantly giving me the run around with things? Why can't people just say what they mean? Ironically enough, I was born in the Midwest but I haven't been more glad to be raised on the east coast where things just make sense. Where folks are real enough with you (to an extent). Now while I rather die than ever move back to my home state, Minneapolis/MN compared to Florida has seriously made the game of "would you rather" seem like an easy choice packing up moving back to FL. That's the best way I can describe how horrible my experience has been here.
Not to mention my level of autism cannot comply with the social norm of being told something they think I want to hear in assumption that I'll grasp their response as a "no" in some form.
Of course if the option of moving elsewhere were on the table, this post wouldn't exist.
I don't know what other methods of masking I can learn or even uphold in order to stop this behavior from any daily interactions I have with Minnesotans.
The state is renowned for aiding us disabled to which I can gratefully attest for as Minnesota shines in taking tremendous care of its vulnerable.*
(*if you're not overly needy and don't mind doing all the leg work to acquire all these "resources" constantly shoved in your face with either discontinued support or sifting through misinformation provided)
I can't say I'm not lucky, though after my experience here it's hard to say if I am still, currently speaking.
I don't know what else to blame myself for. I can't comprehend why people act like this. Vindictive, catty, retaliatory.
Why are y'all like this here? What did I do to you people to have this kind of interaction with almost anyone?
The only people here who've been genuinely real with me have only been the LGBT community which is no surprise. Especially Trans women here in this state I've been fortunate to encounter.
I've never felt more accepted, more safe than with any other demographic out there on this very green earth.
I'd give anything to move to some kind of community with even a smidgen of resemblance to the kindness I was fortunate enough to experience with trans folk. But none such place exists even after copious amounts of research.
It feels as though my paranoia has skyrocketed tenfold with moving into my apartment complex. People here in this public housing setting are either elderly gossips, addicts hooked in some sort of substance smoking cooking or selling away, or straight up psychopaths. Of course with it being "public housing" that just sounds like an average apartment complex, so no surprises there.
Still. The constant smoke and smells coming from other units triggering my migraines. The incessant coughing fits lasting nearly 16hrs a day has made breathing normally again a pipe dream. There's so many horror stories I'd ugly cry and vomit up about moving here in Fall of 2025, but those are stories for another day….
Please, tell me I'm the bad guy. Please tell me I'm the idiot. That I deserve this kind of treatment. Please tell me I'm being waaaaaay too over dramatic, histrionic even.
If anyone here has any insight on the matter, I'd be more than honored to hear your perspective on why you believe this is happening to me. Honestly I'm just tunnel visioned onto this I don't think I can see the big picture of my situation.
If there's one thing I agree with Minnesotans, they're right, there is NO Minnesota Nice. It's called being fake, petty, and a liar. Period. Why do they need to give a nickname for this assortment of traits in a person, better yet, a whole group of people within the state for that matter?
I really don't get it.
I've never wanted to CTB in all my years suffering this punishment called "life".
I have to be doing something, ANYTHING, wrong. I'd like to point the finger at some form of discrimination to be the culprit behind my experience but even folks of other backgrounds tricked me and treat me like dirt acting like a bunch of high schoolers.
I can't sit here and "woe is me boohoo I'm being bullied" though simultaneously I can't keep thinking I'm to blame anymore.
My fellow suicide ideologists, particularly the Minnesotans, why are you guys like this?
Can you please explain.
Please give me some insight. Maybe some tips on how to endure this behavior from the daily encounters with people here until I'm able to execute my plan to CTB before my own anger impulsivities drive my anxiety so high I stab myself in the stomach more times than what a human is capable of doing?
-Topic Shift Incoming-
(buckle in kids)
Now I'm from the east coast. Describing things being vastly different doesn't do much justice.
I moved to Minneapolis in September of 2023 based off medical preference as my previous state wasn't able to provide me with the supports I needed.
The past three years here have painted Hell a far more suitable paradise in comparison. This isn't to shun the folks born and raised here, but I'm fed up blaming myself wondering what it is I'm doing wrong.
I don't know what else to think.
Why are people here so fake? Why are people constantly giving me the run around with things? Why can't people just say what they mean? Ironically enough, I was born in the Midwest but I haven't been more glad to be raised on the east coast where things just make sense. Where folks are real enough with you (to an extent). Now while I rather die than ever move back to my home state, Minneapolis/MN compared to Florida has seriously made the game of "would you rather" seem like an easy choice packing up moving back to FL. That's the best way I can describe how horrible my experience has been here.
Not to mention my level of autism cannot comply with the social norm of being told something they think I want to hear in assumption that I'll grasp their response as a "no" in some form.
Of course if the option of moving elsewhere were on the table, this post wouldn't exist.
I don't know what other methods of masking I can learn or even uphold in order to stop this behavior from any daily interactions I have with Minnesotans.
The state is renowned for aiding us disabled to which I can gratefully attest for as Minnesota shines in taking tremendous care of its vulnerable.*
(*if you're not overly needy and don't mind doing all the leg work to acquire all these "resources" constantly shoved in your face with either discontinued support or sifting through misinformation provided)
I can't say I'm not lucky, though after my experience here it's hard to say if I am still, currently speaking.
I don't know what else to blame myself for. I can't comprehend why people act like this. Vindictive, catty, retaliatory.
Why are y'all like this here? What did I do to you people to have this kind of interaction with almost anyone?
The only people here who've been genuinely real with me have only been the LGBT community which is no surprise. Especially Trans women here in this state I've been fortunate to encounter.
I've never felt more accepted, more safe than with any other demographic out there on this very green earth.
I'd give anything to move to some kind of community with even a smidgen of resemblance to the kindness I was fortunate enough to experience with trans folk. But none such place exists even after copious amounts of research.
It feels as though my paranoia has skyrocketed tenfold with moving into my apartment complex. People here in this public housing setting are either elderly gossips, addicts hooked in some sort of substance smoking cooking or selling away, or straight up psychopaths. Of course with it being "public housing" that just sounds like an average apartment complex, so no surprises there.
Still. The constant smoke and smells coming from other units triggering my migraines. The incessant coughing fits lasting nearly 16hrs a day has made breathing normally again a pipe dream. There's so many horror stories I'd ugly cry and vomit up about moving here in Fall of 2025, but those are stories for another day….
Please, tell me I'm the bad guy. Please tell me I'm the idiot. That I deserve this kind of treatment. Please tell me I'm being waaaaaay too over dramatic, histrionic even.
If anyone here has any insight on the matter, I'd be more than honored to hear your perspective on why you believe this is happening to me. Honestly I'm just tunnel visioned onto this I don't think I can see the big picture of my situation.
If there's one thing I agree with Minnesotans, they're right, there is NO Minnesota Nice. It's called being fake, petty, and a liar. Period. Why do they need to give a nickname for this assortment of traits in a person, better yet, a whole group of people within the state for that matter?
I really don't get it.
I've never wanted to CTB in all my years suffering this punishment called "life".
I have to be doing something, ANYTHING, wrong. I'd like to point the finger at some form of discrimination to be the culprit behind my experience but even folks of other backgrounds tricked me and treat me like dirt acting like a bunch of high schoolers.
I can't sit here and "woe is me boohoo I'm being bullied" though simultaneously I can't keep thinking I'm to blame anymore.
My fellow suicide ideologists, particularly the Minnesotans, why are you guys like this?
Can you please explain.
Please give me some insight. Maybe some tips on how to endure this behavior from the daily encounters with people here until I'm able to execute my plan to CTB before my own anger impulsivities drive my anxiety so high I stab myself in the stomach more times than what a human is capable of doing?
