Despondent
Archangel
- Dec 20, 2019
- 6,777
part of me doesn't because I tell all of you more things than I tell them. I'm more open about my feelings with you all, etc. Part of me does because I want them to know that I was really hurting, and I didn't do the things that I did to be attention seeking. I want them to know that I REALLY was hurting. all of these times I say to them "I('m) wanna/gonna kill myself" isn't always me actually wanting to go through with ctb even if I do. I want to ctb, but part of me is saying that because I'm hurt and I want help, even if I know the help won't help me