Would You Still CTB if you had this option?

[Unwr!tten]

If you suddenly had the option to become a different person, be someone else, somewhere else with a new life, new identity, new Genes, even new mental health— but you still had all your same memories, would you do it? Would you still want to CTB? What would you choose? Who would you become?

 

[kindalone]

I don't exactly know what's wrong with me, but I feel like a different person would have handled the problems that caused my life to spiral with ease. So yeah, maybe if I had no depression I would have handled everything that came my way better instead of letting it crush me.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

still choose ctb because i cant cope with my memories

very many bad things

 

[Das Nichts]

If I could loose some memories and gain a the self-gaslight skill, sure.

 

[Forever Sleep]

No, I'm just tired of living full stop. How about you?

 

[sorrowful]

my past haunts me now, i couldn't be happy knowing what i have been through and knowing how cruel people are. even though i would prefer being another person, i would still ctb eventually.

 

[enditall222]

Honestly, I might not, but I have lots of regrets of the past. I'd honestly prefer to be reincarnated and (hopefully) have a better life

 

[PrisonBreak]

No. The only reason I am suicidal is because of health issues. That's the only reason I am still on this site. Before the illness, I was at peace with living. Infact, I was happy. But now that I'm broken and non-functional, the only thing I think of is not living.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

I would never change who I am or trade places with anybody. I'd be even more suicidal if I were someone else.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, it's undeniable that I would never wish to be trapped here. I don't desire existence, just the thought of being conscious and aware, trapped in a decaying flesh prison repulses me, so of course I would always wish for the permanent relief that only non-existence can bring, I see so much beauty in being completely unaware of everything for all eternity.

Existence in itself is the true problem, I see existence as being an unnecessary and tragic disturbance in what would otherwise be the ideal state of not-being, there is no value in existing, it's truly something so harmful and unnecessary. I know that I could never be delusional enough to wish to exist in this hellish world enduring this process of slowly dying, destined for nowhere and nothing.

 

[Klophy]

If I could be someone else? I'd probably want to stay. I do hate physical/mental aspects of myself.


Not sure If I could overcome these feelings in the long term, but in the short term I'd have a fighting chance.

Maybe reincarnation to give myself a sense of detachment from my memories?

 

[dwindlingfirst]

If you suddenly had the option to become a different person, be someone else, somewhere else with a new life, new identity, new Genes, even new mental health— but you still had all your same memories, would you do it? Would you still want to CTB? What would you choose? Who would you become?

If I had the same memories, I'd remember all the bad things I've done and how much I hate myself. I'd probably still be suicidal, so yeah I'd still ctb

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Absolutely not. The whole reason im going to CTB is because i was born the wrong sex.

 

[expiredfckmeat]

I've never wanted to be someone else, just wish there was somewhere in the world I could be myself. Sometimes wanted what others have but that's not the same. Not even sure who I am anymore...

 

[woh6]

Perhaps it may make my life more tolerable. But since I'll be keeping my memories, I'd be keeping my suicidal ones as well. I'd still want to die on my own terms, it would just make life more enjoyable.

 

[jorheslen428]

If you suddenly had the option to become a different person, be someone else, somewhere else with a new life, new identity, new Genes, even new mental health— but you still had all your same memories, would you do it? Would you still want to CTB? What would you choose? Who would you become?

I mean then I wouldn't be suicidal anymore if I had "new mental health", right?

 

[sickbeyondmeasure]

No the only reason why I want to CTB is because of my disease. I wouldn't be on this site if it wasn't the case.

 

[jazzcat]

I wouldn't, if I was a different person living in a different place with a different personality I think I'd probably want to live, but the different personality part is key I mean otherwise I'd probably just fuck things up again

 

[loopdaloop]

Yes, I'd just choose to live in a place with better access to methods like SN or firearms

 

[numbed one]

If you suddenly had the option to become a different person, be someone else, somewhere else with a new life, new identity, new Genes, even new mental health— but you still had all your same memories, would you do it? Would you still want to CTB? What would you choose? Who would you become?

Well having same mémories wont change a thing , it will bé just a trigger to yr dépression every Time y remember a memory.
And WE are our memories so WE cannot escape .

 

[leftdreaming]

I'll still ctb if I am stuck with the same personality

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Whether I had the chance to be a completly different person or not, isn't important, the life parameters have to change for me. In particular I seek success and being able to sustain the lifestyle I was used to have before becoming deeply depressed after a lot of downs in life. If I found a way to change that to a positive direction I'd not think of CTB.

 

[spøgelse]

No. My whole issue is that I was born wrong. All the bullying I went through, and I just don't give a shit. This is the only thing that effects me. If my body was male I'd be fine. A little fucked up as a person, but fine mentally. I wouldn't change anything besides that. Maybe I'd change my nationality to an English-speaking one, but that's not that important.
Hell, even if my brain was made female I'd be fine, but that'd make me a different person completely.

 

[cyuj]

Yes, i want to CTB mostly because of my current situation but also so i no longer have to remember the past.

 

[H.O.Xan]

isn't that basically god mode? Yes, period. We CTB coz we can't see a better life ahead of us. If tht changed, y would we?

 

[Dosentmatter903]

Fuck yea...get rich and secretly help my family (can't let them know or they'd think I'm just some crazy person). Better genes, clearer thinking and problem solving, fuck all the chick's ect ect...

 

[silent star]

I would still ctb, I couldn't live while remembering is life, the memories would be too much

 

[blacksand]

If you suddenly had the option to become a different person, be someone else, somewhere else with a new life, new identity, new Genes, even new mental health— but you still had all your same memories, would you do it? Would you still want to CTB? What would you choose? Who would you become?

most of us know there will be no lottery win, no Hogwarts letter, no used Camaro with transforming powers, no magical spider bite, no mysterious droids with a message from Princess Leia coming to turn our lives 180 degrees. Lets not debate this tired argument of "you don't really wanna die" because its just another pro life platitude.

 

[outrider567]

If you suddenly had the option to become a different person, be someone else, somewhere else with a new life, new identity, new Genes, even new mental health— but you still had all your same memories, would you do it? Would you still want to CTB? What would you choose? Who would you become?

No

 

[Little_Suzy]

That doesn't work for the PTSD folks. lol. want a new brain and same life!