Would you still be suicidal if you weren't lonely?

[NameOfAction]

The more alone I am, the less I feel like I actually exist. I love people and only live when seen by them. I isolate. So I die

 

[Charmander07]

Loneliness can make you just feel so non real, I totally get that. In the past I used to be like that all the time, but sometimes even talking to people (such as this website, Omegle type websites or like discord friendships) can really help get that loneliness more bareable.

Sorry I'm not the best at actually giving advice but even if it's only online just try to find someone with any sort of interest that you have and I'm sure they'll speak to you if they're nice. It's helped me the past week and I already feel much better about being lonely, but that's just me

 

[burninghill]

I think suicidal ideation for me is something that isn't wholly impacted by my environment, but I think I would feel more grounded and purposeful if I had more people around me who cared and took my struggle seriously.

 

[Tautochrome]

I would. I don't feel lonely at all. In fact, I wish humanity left me the fuck alone. I should really move to remote Siberia or sth

 

[loslassen]

The more alone I am, the less I feel like I actually exist. I love people and only live when seen by them. I isolate. So I die

I'm not lonely at all and have been(maybe still am) actively suicidal

It saddens me to think that the people around me that love me and I love don't really "save" me from suicidal ideation.

 

[jbleakness]

People make me feel alone than anything else. All the bullshit filler that makes up interacting with the majority leaves me empty.

No one can really relate besides a select few.

 

[Spite]

I think I'd still be suicidal if I wasn't lonely. I would just be less suicidal.

 

[metfan647]

I think I'd be less suicidal. Even a couple of close friends could make a difference. Meet for coffee, have a walk and half the day's gone so less ruminating.

 

[DeathByBananabread]

I can say from experience not feeling lonely still doesn't stop me from feeling this way but does vastly reduce the severity, intensity, the amount of time the feeling lasts & the desire to plan it through. No wonder the system is dividing & isolating us so much, eh?

 

[zdeweilx]

It doesn't matter whether i'm surrounded with people or not, i always feel empty and out of whatever is going on. So i'd say no.

 

[Busridin'26]

I switch from so lonely that dreams about going out with someone make me wake up crying to just feeling like fucking connecting and that human experience. I dunno.

Abuse history & society makes it hard in these interpersonal things.

Im kinda just in a phase of "nope can't handle it and dont wanna" plus like finding peace in ways when im alone. Balance.

But also yeahhh isolating does have this effect of making ne feel less real or human or like I matter at all. & yeah living or dying bc I want to but it really does matter to be connected. Human nature and all.

Anyway just my thoughts

 

[violetforever]

im going to interpret this question personally. when i was 11-13 i had school friends i hung out with outside of school too when i could. so i wasnt really "lonely"? i was still extremely suicidal and cut myself and developed anorexia at these ages. i had friends but i couldnt talk with them about my abusive home life and the destructive habits it created for me. i had to hide all of that. i had friends but i felt lonely in that way. i kept that part of myself from them. in that time of my life i resorted to social media as a place to vent. i made online friends who i could be open with about my abusive life/self harm. i guess that made me feel less lonely for a while but i was still suicidal. those times have long since passed. im an adult now and im not on social media anymore. i only have one remaining online friend. we have pretty similar situations and are both suicidal and can be open about it. it hasnt made me less suicidal and our friendship isnt really a reason for me to keep holding on to life anymore. i dont know what it will take to make me not feel suicidal? i think its impossible. my family has just irreversibly destroyed me and how i interact with the world and other people. maybe its even worse because theyre still abusive and we still have so many problems within our family. i think ill never fully feel free of loneliness when familial love is absent in my life. as much as i like to pretend with myself, i know there is no fix to this that i can find in someone or something else. it feels useless to try to pursue people and things for that reason. what could effectively fill the void of loving/caring/healthy parents i dont have? i at least have my grandma who makes up for how unmotherly my own mom is. but my grandpa is just as horrible, if not more, as my dad to me. its a vulnerable position to not have a father figure as a young girl/woman. im such a child.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i don't know. it's one of my most main reasons to ctb, but it isn't the only one. i really don't know.

 

[tasmaka]

Not the matter of being lonley, but feeling alone.

Im around people all day, the same people, who are outwardly kind to me, but i still feel isolated and alone despite it.

Im fine with being alone but the lack of feelings towards connections gets me down for sure.

 

[hurb]

The more alone I am, the less I feel like I actually exist. I love people and only live when seen by them. I isolate. So I die

I would be suicidal when lonely but not when alone.
For me not to be lonely there has to be people that make me feel im alone when enjoying their company. Being so comfortable with each other presence we forget we are sharing our space with someone.
Sadly these people are nowhere to exist near me.
This is still a theory tho. I might still end up suicidal even with the best case scenario

 

[pelicanportal]

if i was not ugly i would have self esteem and not be alone so i could make it through the harder times and trials with a reason to live and maybe a bit of comfort on those really hard days

so yeah probably. not the source of the issue but a good bandaid. hugging mysef sobbing in the shower aient hittin

 

[negi-maguro]

Honesty, I think yeah, I would be far less suicidal if I weren't alone. I mean, sure, there are other things other than being lonely that is killing me like monetary problems and huge expectations. But, at the core, my suffering comes from not having anyone to really vibe with. It's obvious when I find myself crying on my way home from a dj set, a con, or even the arcade. When I'm not facing an immediate threat of no money or being yelled at, my mind fills it by imagining interactions 24/7. Idk maybe it's self-inflicted tho, I do have friends, but it's really hard to reach out unless we talk about video games or something. But I digress, if I'm surrounded by people that I can interact with, I would be far more okay.

 

[aufrechtm7]

Being alone isn't good but at the same time it's not actually all so bad. I had a girlfriend and plenty of "friends" but it didn't change how I felt in life at the end of the day. You'll often find you even have to personally compromise with yourself in order to make certain relationships work.

 

[Fadenself00]

acutely a lot less for sure.

although i dont know if i can ever really deeply trust a person anymore

 

[Lucid7972]

I think being lonely could be voluntary, i.e. you reject people, or involuntary, i.e. people reject you.
For me, I belong to the voluntary groups, people annoy me so much, and I tend to isolate myself. I think I know the social cues to fit in and befriend people, like "being positive", go to social events, but over the years, I just found these social cues are not organically part of me, I feel pretentious and forced, I can't stand being superficial.
My understanding is that both of my suicidality and loneliness are the manifestations of my philosophical stance.

 

[eggsausagerice]

at the current state i'm in i would just fuck any good relationship up and drag the person that's trying to support me down with me. i do have "friends" but i don't see them or talk to them very often. if i had more friends or a close friend i think i would still feel the same emotionally, but probably more guilty about my suicide if i felt like someone genuinely cared. i'm really prone to being avoidant and isolating myself because i feel like a burden if i'm not happy all the time, so it's honestly better for me to be lonely. for most of my life i've always felt deeply alone but the happiest periods of my life are when i feel like i've met someone that understands me. but those relationships always end with me getting replaced by someone they like more or them becoming distant from me. i'm too tired to try again when i just expect to be discarded. sometimes i just straight up try to tell people to not care about me because they'll get bored of me.

 

[gattifw]

Obviously not, my loneliness is the root of all my problems

 

[castlebravo]

Yes. Maybe less so but the progressive neurological disease I have is my main reason.

 

[madwoman]

I'm so lonely. Even though I do have some people in my life, no one really knows me and makes me feel like I am loved. I have a hard time letting people in and let people go all the time. It's hard to keep going feeling this way. & the more suicidal I get the worse it gets bc I don't want anyone to tether me here

 

[eggsausagerice]

It's hard to keep going feeling this way. & the more suicidal I get the worse it gets bc I don't want anyone to tether me here

that's what i'm dealing with. it really feels like there's no point in me talking to people or trying to maintain my relationships if i'm trying to kill myself and "stay" suicidal rather than keep on going for the sake of other people. i've wanted to isolate myself more and more as the months pass. i still talk on sasu and read posts, but i wish that i would leave the website so that i stop interacting with users. i just feel like don't have anywhere to go when i feel so miserable.

 

[copioushopelessness]

I think I'd still be suicidal if I wasn't lonely. I would just be less suicidal.

THIS. Just the right people, which are hard to come by. I'm easily misunderstood. Or taken advantage of. Now that there's nothing left of me they've moved on, but for the most part I've always been alone. For years I've been COMPLETELY alone. I can't even afford wi-fi so I sit in a quiet room with just my cracked phone and nothing to do. No hobbies anymore.
I think only prisoners of war or people in segregation for years in jail know this type of non-stimuli. Had a dream last night I got a cat but I can't even take care of myself. More of a dog person anyway.

 

[kunikuzushi]

I feel a deep loneliness that makes me want to die. if I can cure this loneliness though, it would be replaced by fear of losing that person. so maybe if I had a lot of people that cared about me and accepted me, I might want to live. but no one can ever accept me once they get to know me. my loneliness is a promise, and it's the reason I will end my life.

 

[Moniker]

Maybe. I don't know. I have a few friends, but I'm not close with any of them. I don't think I'd get anything out of changing that.

I've never been in a romantic relationship and I don't think I'll ever be in one. Any sort of intimacy feels really uncomfortable to me. At best, I'd just be very distant or constantly worry that they'll leave me.

 

[GyreOfAsh]

I'd be more tbh. I'm the least suicidal when I'm alone due to my conditions only worsening around sound.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

Yeah. It will always be an intrusive thought in the back of my mind. That's just the way it is. But I can imagine I wouldn't ruminate on it so often.