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inconclusivesorbet

On my way
Jan 28, 2026
90
I imagine that Itd be preferable to grieve me as someone else's victim and not my own. Whatever way just dont set me on fire. Drown me, stab me, shoot me, choke me that's all fine. The assailant wouldn't know how much of a favor they may be doing me.
 
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alivebutnotliving

“The suffering said we go around”
Dec 16, 2024
40
This post is not a threat, I promise!
Suicidal people may yearn for death, but how would you feel if someone killed you?
Personally, compared to continuing to live, I would prefer being shot in the head, pushed off a cliff, hanged, or strangled, but I wouldn't want to be stabbed.
if i were to be murdered, i'd want it to be some giant freak accident i wouldn't be able to predict. but if i was able to make that decision myself, no. i want to be in full control over my life for once
 
tomame

tomame

forlorn đź’”
Dec 28, 2025
85
totally. would take the responsibility off me of ending it
 
intr0verse

intr0verse

Arcanist
Jan 29, 2021
432
I would like to be handed over a bottle of N. After i reach nirvana or buddhahood, i promise to clear all their negative karma. :halo:
 
LaetumCat

LaetumCat

I like to play with sharp items
May 11, 2025
101
Hm. As a concept, I wouldn't mind it I suppose. But realistically? No, probably not. They could torture me before death, make me slowly bleed out, etc. I'd only accept if I knew it would be quick and painless, otherwise no point in involving someone else in it.
Now, if it would be a double suicide in a way we kill each other not ourselves, now we're talking....
 
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slitter

New Member
Jan 7, 2024
4
This post is not a threat, I promise!
Suicidal people may yearn for death, but how would you feel if someone killed you?
Personally, compared to continuing to live, I would prefer being shot in the head, pushed off a cliff, hanged, or strangled, but I wouldn't want to be stabbed.
I really wish it would happen honestly but I know that's unlikely. I feel so guilty for wanting to ctb and I often fantasize about someone taking the burden of the job away from me
 
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PetalFlower98

New Member
Mar 29, 2026
1
Yes, as long as it is quick and instant. I would be very grateful actually.
 
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Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,220
No, but I think one of those old school Gladiator showdowns would be a cool way to go out!
 

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OnMyWayToSomewhere2

Member
Jul 16, 2025
38
Since I'm not sure I'll be able to CTB without my SI getting in the way, maybe. If it were quick and mostly painless, that might be better.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,561
I frequently have nightmares now. I had one last week where I was walking down the street at night and a car was following me and it was clear they were going to hurt or kill me. I was terrified. I woke up before anything happened. So no, I wouldn't like it. It would need to be something like a clean shot in the head while I wasn't looking.
 
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Seneca65AD

Student
Oct 28, 2025
186
Setting aside the legal definition of murder, my answer is yes. It would take away the stigma of suicide and probably make it a little easier to accept for my wife and daughter.

Imagine if there was a John Wick style of murder for hire but only for suicidal people. I would transfer the money and indicate the type of death I needed (accident, by product of crime, messy, clean, painful or painless) and time frame. The mere thought of not knowing when, where or how would definitely introduce a level of excitement - at least for me.
 
Sammystink

Sammystink

Sammy
Mar 30, 2026
16
Honestly yeah, it would help me a lot. Im not really strong enough to do it myself just yet..
 
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Catchthebusnow

Member
Mar 20, 2026
12
Yes!! No issue at all with that. My biggest obstacle is getting caught CTB'ing and trying to plan around that but there's always a chance something will slip up … and if I'm caught, it's all over. That would eliminate that! Any guaranteed done, I'm on board, even if by someone else
 
Dinozauria

Dinozauria

Long sought rest
Feb 8, 2026
107
If I was shot in the head, sure why not

Though, I don't live in the USA (or any other country where people commonly have guns) so I'd probably just be stabbed, and it'd be painful as fucckkkk. So yeah, I'd rather not be murdered (unless maybe I was pushed off a high cliff)
 
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meowzers3276

Member
Mar 28, 2026
20
i would totally pay someone to either shoot me, strangle, or otherwise administer and oversee my death to make sure it's successful. i've considered it but i wouldnt want the other party to be penalized legally.
 
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chewedmeat

cornballer
Feb 14, 2026
8
Yes! Its a very frequent thought! Whenever im outside, or i let my thoughts wander i get paranoid that someone will come from somewhere even if its illogical and kill me (been like this since early childhood, i remember being unable to sleep and panicking because i thought i needed to have my back facing the wall so i could keep an eye on my room in case i was attacked, but then theyd somehow get between the bedframe and the wall and still kill me! maybe theyre anorexic idk). I think this has led me to be more attached to killers in horror media, and such. Since at least the age of 7 ive had periods od frequent daydreams and fantasies about being killed and enjoying it. I think i would prefer to have a quick death with very little pain, hopefully no stabbing involved, but most my fantasies involve either being suddenly attacked from behind and having my throat slit or being kidnapped and killed later on, i can vividly see someone suddenly charging towards me if someone is behind me and i can see their reflection, and i get paranoid whenever cars drive past or slow down because i convince myself its because theyre after me. I also have some thoughts about being shot, but its not very realistic because of where i live.
 
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