Would you CTB right now at this moment if you could?

[Viola]

Right now today I wouldn't as I have important things to do but if you'd asked on Friday there's no doubt I'd be gone. It changes all the time.

 

[jimbob1000]

yes , just need to find the right way to do it ,

 

[GreyMagic]

Feel like jumping in front of train right now. But do have N as back up.

 

[Marktheghost]

Yes. I just need to find the right way to do it.

 

[Epsilon0]

I am in so much pain at this very instant, which is why I logged in, to try and divert my attention from the monster that is hounding me so relentlessly today.

I would ctb in the blick of an eye just to make the pain stop, but I cannot for several reasons.

Is it ok of I just SCREEEEEEAAAAAAM?

(Excuse my momentary loss of sanity.)

 

[s1mplem3]

I can CTB any moment I want, I want to get ready.

 

[Trisolaris]

Yes

 

[UnsureWhatToDo]

If it is quick and painless, yeah.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Every day hell every hour is different for me. Right this second yes I would but I don't want it to be impulsive. I have 3 methods ready to go for when the time is right. My top method is sn which I don't want to do impulsively.

 

[keiichidono]

Yes, if I found someone willing to hide my corpse or come with me I don't want to stay here a single second more

 

[Isittimetogonola]

I guess my SI has prevented me from wrapping up my final letters and loose ends. When that is done, I will be ready on a moments notice.

 

[Ireland]

I would but too scared.

 

[Anxietykillsme]

Probably not. I want to make sure I'm making the right decision first. I can't see life getting any better, but you never know.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I know I've already replied to this thread but I'm doing it again. YES YES a thousand times yes. I need to escape this hell. I don't want to do this anymore. I really want to fall asleep and never ever fucking wake up again. I really can't do this anymore and if it were that simple I'd ctb right now

 

[the box is empty]

I haven't finished "packing". I have to wait for this whole covid-19 to blow over so that I know the people I care about will be okay.

 

[selfhater]

YES YES YES

 

[Huntfish34]

At this Very moment.. No. I'm looking forward to a couple things coming up.. (However small)
Most mornings when I wake up I have a little saying I tell myself.. " God , if it is your will and your way.. Please take me out of this world. I Wish I was fucking Dead. " Big rollercoaster my mind goes through with all of this . I hate it.

 

[It'llNeverEnd]

At this moment, no. I am not actively suicidal right now.

Those moments come and go for me, so this answer might change at any time.

this is my answer too