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bl33ding_heart

bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
144
I was lucky enough to end up with a loving partner that gives me the love, care and nurture I never got growing up. But even so, my severe and chronic mental illness still becomes symptomatic. The smallest things still piss me off gravely, I still have crazy jealousy and possessiveness issues, I still feel like I don't belong or fit in this world. A loving partner is a blessing to have, but it depends on the person whether it's enough to fill the void in their heart
 
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myriapoda

myriapoda

happy birthday!
Jun 24, 2025
11
i think it'd depend on what kind of person they were. i can only recall having one relationship that lasted only about a year because while i loved them dearly,, i worshiped and irrationally feared them to the point of the having daydreams about talking to them, while in reality i avoided them.

it's a mix bag. the want to CTB would probably lessen and delay my plans to be with them more,, or— speed up plans to fulfill their desires if they wished it. i think i like the idea of serving people than i do being with them.
 
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LifeIsASadist

LifeIsASadist

Its only a matter of time
Oct 16, 2024
245
Self explainatory; yes
 
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bankai

bankai

Enlightened
Mar 16, 2025
1,994
Does a loving partner exist for the broken? probably not. lets be honest.
This is the thing.if you're messed up enough to consider suicide you shouldn't be in any relationship cause you're not going to be happy and they're not going to be happy.it's selfish as hell.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Elementalist
May 10, 2025
850
the main reason for me to ctb is chronic physical pain
so the answer is : NO
 
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BlockHammer

BlockHammer

Losing My Religion
Oct 25, 2023
272
I wouldn't say stop, cause i already made a decision that if my life gotten worse (luckly i still had parents who support me) im going to CTB. But, if my dream girl suddenly appear, at best she's just gonna make me delay my suicidality. Also it depended if she can helped me with my problem, im not saying she should solve it by herself but a person who is able to fully understand what i'm facing right now would be a BIG help for me to face my problem

Though im not even sure if im gonna met one, i probably gonna commit suicide before it happened 😆
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Mage
May 7, 2025
522
I've never had a relationship in my whole life. I did meet my dream woman a couple of years ago. Still nothing. So while I feel like connecting with my dream woman would be what would keep me here... I know it isn't realistic to happen now so it is only theory.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

Looking for a way out
Oct 4, 2024
129
Stop be from CTB? Perhaps.will make me a happy person? Perhaps only temporarily.

Now, having a loving partner is part of the equation. There other factors that play a role in our happiness. Things like financial state, health, and general life circumstances.

Love alone won't fix all that.
 
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Grog

Grog

Be good to yourself.
Jun 3, 2025
248
I actually think there's a good chance it would stop me. Maybe that sounds silly. But, if I found someone to be in a relationship with that really understood me, and liked doing the same things I do, it would make me feel a lot less lonely.
 
usernamesarehard

usernamesarehard

Life sucks and then you die
Dec 22, 2021
205
Yeah, probably, in a way. I've always been scared to ctb, SI and all, but now I don't really have SI anymore. I'm working on getting better. I've been depressed since highschool and socially anxious since maybe middleschool, maybe earlier than that. I'm taking 1 medication and looking into being prescribed a second to help. I'm planning on forcing myself to be social. All of that should help. But not having a partner is really the only thing I'm missing. I don't WANT to ctb, I want to get better, but living without a partner, to me, really isn't worth it.
 
Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
677
This is the thing.if you're messed up enough to consider suicide you shouldn't be in any relationship cause you're not going to be happy and they're not going to be happy.it's selfish as hell.
Absolutely.
 
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4206842

Member
Jun 12, 2025
24
If by loving partner you mean someone going the very same path, yes it would.
But wait... my path leading to suicide, I guess it wouldn't finally.
 
33K1LLM3

33K1LLM3

Pretty Girl, Sick Mind
Jun 28, 2025
79
I have an amazing lover, he treats me so well. However he is completely delusional about my suffering and acts like it can alll be solved easily, well it can't. He loves me so much but even he can't reverse the lifelong damage, no matter how much I love him. He won't accept my ctb, which means I can't share him my plans. It's nice to know though I'll spend my final week before death w him, so I can give him a goodbye <3
 
zeroangel

zeroangel

angelpilled
Jul 1, 2025
2
I'm only alive for the sake of my partner and dog, so technically, yes. However, I know that if I do make the decision to actually go through with CTB, that he can and will find someone better than me. That's the only solace I have if I do end up leaving him behind..
 

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