God I wish. I would live my best life (anime, vidya and other copes), til. the copes work no longer, then I would kill myself via a shotgun at like 30 yo, when the real existential shit starts to kick in. I would leave whatever's left to my family and friends, going out peacefully. The way it is now, I will do it rushed, without much consideration (I hope). God I wish I had the means to live a cushy life until I get sick of it. Not everyone has such a luxury.