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arie

arie

yeah idk anymore
May 21, 2021
71
One main thing I'm worried about with ctb is that when people find my body I don't want it to look gross, and, well, dead—just thinking about my corpse riddled with pallor mortis, livor mortis, and vein discoloration, let alone bloating and putrefaction, is horrifying to me. I have body dysmorphia and an eating disorder so I feel like I already look like enough of a monster in my alive state :'(

The best solution I can think of is just to have my body be discovered as soon after death as possible, but timing is fickle, especially with drugs...
Nobody looks good when they are dead. If you're gonna have an open casket, family members will dress you up, put make up on and try to make you look the best they can. You mentioned your body being discovered as soon as possible, and I think that will help. Personally, I don't care what I look like when I'm dead. I don't care what they are gonna do with my dead body. My grandpa always said "When I'm dead, throw me in the garbage bin" and I agree with that.
 
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Kattt

Banned
May 18, 2021
796
The most famous exception being Evelyn McHale who jumped from the Empire state building (or a nearby hotel depending on where you read it).
 

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Kattt

Banned
May 18, 2021
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Not bad considering it was th 40s and taken with a very old crappy camera
 
littlelungs

littlelungs

Wizard
Oct 21, 2018
646
I get it. I'm fully aware that how my body looks when I'm dead doesn't actually matter at all, death isn't pretty, I can't do anything about it, blah blah blah... but what bothers me is the idea of decomposing and smelling awful, because, well, it's fucking gross. I know I won't care when I'm dead, but as long as I'm still alive, it's still something that bothers me. I just try to not think about it, which I know is WAY easier said than done.
 
justsayin

justsayin

Member
Jan 30, 2021
493
The most famous exception being Evelyn McHale who jumped from the Empire state building (or a nearby hotel depending on where you read it).

It is famous, but it's not an exception. Her body was in significantly worse condition than it appears at first. Blood on her feet is hardly noticable because the photo is in black and white. More importantly, the photo was taken before the body was moved, and the car was still keeping it in one piece. I've just read an article saying that, according to reports, she essentially "fell apart" when they moved her body. It is definitely a striking photograph, but romanticising the whole thing does more harm than good.
 
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