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ultradespair

ultradespair

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Jul 25, 2025
51
So much pain and trauma could've been prevented and I wouldn't go to sleep every night hating and being disgusted with myself. Also my mom wouldn't need to take care of me anymore and waste money and effort on a failure like me that never did anything with his life.
 
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Sadoldlady@1947

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Jul 12, 2025
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So much pain and trauma could've been prevented and I wouldn't go to sleep every night hating and being disgusted with myself. Also my mom wouldn't need to take care of me anymore and waste money and effort on a failure like me that never did anything with his life.
I am in my late 70's and living with untreatable MDD since my late teens. I am ready to pass away now, but other than maajor depression, I have no serious health issues. I am hoping MAID will be available in Canada in the near future to those of us who have mental health issues, but no physical ailments that will end our lives
 
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ultradespair

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Jul 25, 2025
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I am in my late 70's and living with untreatable MDD since my late teens. I am ready to pass away now, but other than maajor depression, I have no serious health issues. I am hoping MAID will be available in Canada in the near future to those of us who have mental health issues, but no physical ailments that will end our lives
Really sorry to hear that but im super proud of you for fighting for that long :heart:
 
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Jun 11, 2025
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I truly understand. Every day I wish I ctb earlier for the same reasons as you.

Someone out there (me) can really relate to you!!! Please never feel alone even if I can't say much else.

May you find peace either way you go in the end.
 
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