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Exhausted546

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2025
406
Alternatively, I truly envy people with SN or a gun.
I've been struggling with hanging for months. Mainly the spot where I'll hang. I'll explore a new patch of woods tonight,hopefully it meets de requirements and I can finally ctb
 
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MollerPlesset

Member
Nov 26, 2022
35
I think that having a "planned" accidental death would be genius. But it just seems that everything is made to keep us alive and suffering. I also struggle to find a safe place to ctb, there is people everywhere. Good luck finding a good place in the woods. Today I tried to ctb in my attic and I just kept crying and couldn't do it. Maybe if I was in a nice place in the woods I would have been able to jump.
 
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Exhausted546

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2025
406
I think that having a "planned" accidental death would be genius. But it just seems that everything is made to keep us alive and suffering. I also struggle to find a safe place to ctb, there is people everywhere. Good luck finding a good place in the woods. Today I tried to ctb in my attic and I just kept crying and couldn't do it. Maybe if I was in a nice place in the woods I would have been able to jump.
Jump? Also I'm sorry to hear that.

Honestly all I need is a private spot with a tree that I could climb (this can be hard to get tbh, but I don't have a car so I can't move with a ladder) and I'd like it to not be too much of a deserted spot either so at least I can be found before my corpse rots which would be traumatic for my family, I wouldn't want them to make "missing" posts on social medias and such. The absolute easiest option would be to just off myself at my father's house. He's about to sell it so it'd devalue the price and fuck him over + traumatize him which I won't do

Alternatively, I could always work for a month or something, get a motel after my first pay and just end it there. I truly hope I can die tonight instead.

Otherwise the woods around where I stay became a dense nasty swamp since the snow melted, there's a few trees that I could use but nobody will find me in some time, it'd also feel cruel to make people walk through that nasty swamp to recover my body even If I sent the location right before my death. I can barely navigate through it myself.

Alternatively any park would do, the had solid bars. Issue is the fact that it's hella morbid to ruin children's playground for kids and such

If I had a gun I'd just do it in any park or at the entrance of woods.

If I had SN, I'd do it in a motel to not turn my father's place into a potential crime scene.

It's not easy honestly
 
Bishop

Bishop

People die the way they lived
Mar 24, 2024
507
I think that having a "planned" accidental death would be genius. But it just seems that everything is made to keep us alive and suffering. I also struggle to find a safe place to ctb, there is people everywhere. Good luck finding a good place in the woods. Today I tried to ctb in my attic and I just kept crying and couldn't do it. Maybe if I was in a nice place in the woods I would have been able to jump.
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,909
I really understand as all I want is to cease existing peacefully and never suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence ever again, I just see so much terrible extreme cruelty in how peaceful ways to cease existing are made inaccessible, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just access a peaceful poison, I hope you find the freedom you search for.