Venting Wish everyone in my life knew how awful I really am

[HoleintheDark]

I want to become the most hated and loathed person in the eyes of everyone I know. Obviously because then they'd be glad I'm finally gone. I just don't have the guts to actually be such a bad person. I wish everyone just already knew that I'm stupid and annoying, that my death will be a good thing.

This modern society is too soft and nice, everyone is taught to quietly tolerate each other. In an ideal world any random stranger would just put me out of my misery the moment they realized how useless I am.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

You'll not be a bad person just by CTBing thi is a human right and you ar free to do it at any time you wish. Don' t care too much about it. I know it's easier said than done. I hope you can find peace but really if you are sure don't take to much care about it, nobody will crae in the end anyway.

 

[OnceThougtTwiceDone]

I've thought about this too, but think about if you fail, then you'd just be hated for a long amount of time until you finally die. And the more you fail, the more desperate you get, the lower your chances are.