I would rather suicide because suicide is my top goal , my only rational goal
There is nothing that could ever change my mind
They say you have to live or do this or want that
Why do I have to live or do that? I don't.
The only things I want is to avoid unbearable pain and kill myself ( this bag of 30 trillion cells they call a human body that is a torture chamber i'm trapped in)
Nothing really matters except avoiding intolerable pain or extreme suffering or extreme torture.
And to me it matters to escape this hell, and also undo this horrible imposition .
Many more reasons a book to explain it why to me only suicide is my only rational goal the only thing that really matters
How fast did this year 2025 fly by? In a blink its 2026. We'll all be dead soon and never exist again. Another reason why nothing matters.
But i can't go through any extreme torture and suicide to permanent Non-existence is the only way to avoid torture
the crap pleasure addictions are fleeting. but the horrible thing is 1 second of the worst pain can seem to go on for years.
They repeatedly tell us that we have to seek pleasure, enjoy yourself, be happy.
Pain far outweighs any shit pleasure
Horrible things far outweigh any pleasure addictions