willitpass
The awful things we do to make the head go quiet
- Mar 10, 2020
- 3,352
Awful. I haven't made a centimeter of progress. I am ready to go. I gave my one last shot and it didn't work. I just don't know how to fake my way out. It's like I let down all the walls I had up telling everyone I was fine when I came into the hospital in October and now I don't have it in me to lie anymore. But if I don't lie I'll never be able to carry out CTB. I don't even need to discharge to be able to do it, I just need to work up to where they trust me enough to have an outing by myself.
