Venting will never do it

[lostangel]

Just spent the last few minutes crying because i know i will never do it. I tried to hang myself but I couldn't take the choking feeling of it not even for e few seconds. I'm too much of a pussy. I can't hang myself. EVERY time my vision starts to black it starts returning to normal again. I can never pass out. I feel more hopeless than ever. I am furious I am sick of tired of being back in this position. Wanting to die but not being capable of it.

 

[MovingOn]

Browse the site and look at what other people are planning.

 

[Teddybear]

Just spent the last few minutes crying because i know i will never do it. I tried to hang myself but I couldn't take the choking feeling of it not even for e few seconds. I'm too much of a pussy. I can't hang myself. EVERY time my vision starts to black it starts returning to normal again. I can never pass out. I feel more hopeless than ever. I am furious I am sick of tired of being back in this position. Wanting to die but not being capable of it.

Hey, you are *not* "a pussy". It takes a lot of guts to stick it out in a life that isn't kind, when all the world seems out to get you.

There is no need to rush death if you don't feel like it. Pick up a dangerous hobby, engage in risky behaviour, try freehand climbing or base jumping and then wait for "good" things to happen.

Or just sit around and eat pizza until the heart attack gets you. Death is not a bravery contest … its an exercise in patience and humility.

 

[SpiroSundae]

If you can properly position it for a blood choke, you will pass out very quickly. You'll be unconscious for the brutal part in which your body desperately tries to get oxygen. good luck, I'm sorry its so hard

 

[hopelessgirl]

Just spent the last few minutes crying because i know i will never do it. I tried to hang myself but I couldn't take the choking feeling of it not even for e few seconds. I'm too much of a pussy. I can't hang myself. EVERY time my vision starts to black it starts returning to normal again. I can never pass out. I feel more hopeless than ever. I am furious I am sick of tired of being back in this position. Wanting to die but not being capable of it.

I also can't hang myself.

 

[DejectedRealtor]

OMG, I'm so sorry you are having this experience. Please don't feel bad about having trouble using hanginng CBT. It is extremely difficult to do and only very few people can go through with it. You are brave for trying but I also think you are brave for stopping. It sounds like you should wait a while and consider other options before trying something like CBT in this way.
I don't know you but I'm absolutely here for you. This is one of the great things about this site.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's certainly so awful and tiring when all that you wish for is to leave this world, yet you feel unable to. I feel trapped here as well but I've never attempted the hanging method before as I would fear the method failing if I tried to go through with it.
It does make hanging sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear of all the people succeeding with it, I really envy those who are gone. But existence can certainly be prison like when we have to struggle so much to leave and your frustrations are understandable. I just hate the fact how all this unnecessary suffering exists in this world and how we cannot just easily leave, the option of a straightforward exit is what we deserve after being forced into a life that we never asked for.

 

[lostangel]

I do understand that it's certainly so awful and tiring when all that you wish for is to leave this world, yet you feel unable to. I feel trapped here as well but I've never attempted the hanging method before as I would fear the method failing if I tried to go through with it.
It does make hanging sound so much easier than it actually is when you hear of all the people succeeding with it, I really envy those who are gone. But existence can certainly be prison like when we have to struggle so much to leave and your frustrations are understandable. I just hate the fact how all this unnecessary suffering exists in this world and how we cannot just easily leave, the option of a straightforward exit is what we deserve after being forced into a life that we never asked for.

I feel you. I also hate how our suffering will be for nothing. I don't believe in a God so all my pain will be forgotten about and no one will know how much pain I was in. hugs for you

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I hate to say it, but I might not be able to go through with it myself. I may be doomed to suffer until my natural death, or until someone mercifully kills me.

 

[Cryptonite]

I suggest looking into various substances to combat SI. I'm personally starting with psilocybin (magic mushrooms) – it has been proven to mitigate fear of death in terminal patients. Then I'll evaluate the results and possibly go for DMT (the strongest psychedelic that resembles real near death experience). If it doesn't help enough, I will try substances that mitigate more immediate fear, such as MDMA or dissociatives such as PCP or DXM.