Will it be safe to ctb with SN method when your moms at your watch?

[Amnesiaisalloverme]

So I live with my parents in a small two room apartment. It a very small one like two rooms facing each other . One is the bedroom and the other is living room. So I am a patient of deep depression so my mom takes care of me all the time, feeds me, wakes up in the middle of the night multiple times to check if im in the bed room on my bed so what I plan is might be I take sn in the living room and after throwing up and all go to my bed but I am concerned what if finds out i mean someone said you will make sounds when you asphyxiate with SN so theyll know. I mean from what I am thinking i go pretend sleeping and makes no sound and no throwing up it will work but i have no idea what will happen. Also i dont know how much time would it take to get unconscious. Would I have a chance to take it in living room and be able to go bedroom without getting unconscious so quickly or should i lay on the sofa on living room but that way my mom will come and ask me to come to bedroom to sleep. Gaaaaawd im terrified. I want to die so bad im suffering every second

 

[Cathy Ames]

In this situation there is a very high (possibly even 100%) likelihood that you will fail due to being found and rescued.

 

[Amnesiaisalloverme]

In this situation there is a very high (possibly even 100%) likelihood that you will fail due to being found and rescued.

Wut if after getting unconscious n pretending to sleep they wont know . They wud think im sleeping

 

[Cathy Ames]

Your mother gets up multiple times during the night to check on you.

 

[botch3d]

Bad idea

 

[Amnesiaisalloverme]

Bad idea

There is no other option bro. Im bound badly

Your mother gets up multiple times during the night to check on you

Your mother gets up multiple times during the night to check on you.

All i want to know what should i make noises after getting unconscious?

In this situation there is a very high (possibly even 100%) likelihood that you will fail due to being found and rescued.

Will u gasp for air while unconscious?

 

[theboy]

Your mother is very sweet!
Maybe sleeping in your room is the best option.

 

[Mia Wallace]

Ehhh. I wouldn't chance is with your moms watchful eye on you, and I agree with @theboy how very sweet of her to check in on you! Even though I know that doesn't help your situation :/

 

[Amnesiaisalloverme]

Your mother is very sweet!
Maybe sleeping in your room is the best option.

She is but she cannot make my suffering any less. She is suffering too with me. I am a burden on her .

Ehhh. I wouldn't chance is with your moms watchful eye on you, and I agree with @theboy how very sweet of her to check in on you! Even though I know that doesn't help your situation :/

I cannot. I just want to make sure would i make gasping noises while unconscious coz my plan is to go to bed (if luckily i dont throw up again n again) and my parents wud think she is asleep while i was ctbing. Plus we dont have a separate bedroom. We just have the same room with separate beds coz we poor lol

 

[Cathy Ames]

All i want to know what should i make noises after getting unconscious?

Will u gasp for air while unconscious?

I'm sorry I didn't see this reply before now. Yes, if you read the descriptions, it sounds like additional vomiting, groaning, and loud abnormal sounding breathing are possibilities. I believe one person mentioned seizures, and she fell out of her bed for some reason or perhaps fell on the floor while trying to reach the bathroom to vomit again. I'll see if I can find that.

I think your mother would be very likely to hear something that wakes her up or notice something is wrong if she checks on you.

Edit: And, yes, gasping is also possible, I think. Others have been more organized in compiling this information than I have.

Edit2: If this link works, read the profile posts from @995 (who fell out of bed and likely had a seizure). https://sanctioned-suicide.net/members/995.26068/

 

[lifeORdeath]

Your color and stupor will give you away. By the time you hurl, you will have a hard time walking probably and be confused, before even getting to an unconscious state.
You'd be best to leave your house unless you are on some sort of lockdown?

 

[Amnesiaisalloverme]

Fuck. What happens after seizure. This is hell. I cant die n cant even keep on living. Ill just give it a try idk

I'm sorry I didn't see this reply before now. Yes, if you read the descriptions, it sounds like additional vomiting, groaning, and loud abnormal sounding breathing are possibilities. I believe one person mentioned seizures, and she fell out of her bed for some reason or perhaps fell on the floor while trying to reach the bathroom to vomit again. I'll see if I can find that.

I think your mother would be very likely to hear something that wakes her up or notice something is wrong if she checks on you.

Edit: And, yes, gasping is also possible, I think. Others have been more organized in compiling this information than I have.

Edit2: If this link works, read the profile posts from @995 (who fell out of bed and likely had a seizure). https://sanctioned-suicide.net/members/995.26068/

Your color and stupor will give you away. By the time you hurl, you will have a hard time walking probably and be confused, before even getting to an unconscious state.
You'd be best to leave your house unless you are on some sort of lockdown?

This is my only issue that i cannot be alone on my own no matter what. My mom always on watch.